Beatiful Disaster

101210

2010-12-10T15:20:00.002+08:00

Hi humans,
I am back from my short gateway with family like a few days ago. Everything was just awesome and fabulous. Went to some beautiful places which i never thought it really exist there. Did some shopping and i bought quite a number of things. Hehe. The 6 days passed in the blink of an eyes when i was there. Took some photos but i've yet to upload it. I've been busy the whole week of this week. Monday i slack at home because i was too tired after the trip. Tuesday and wednesday working. Yesterday meet awesome boy and today meeting Jueqi ! Hehe i am a happy kid.
Haven't meet the awesome boy for 2 weeks and finally got to meet him yesterday. Spend the whole day with him yesterday. Awesome day i should say. His being sucha sweetie pie yesterday.^^
And my weekend is burned. I swear ! I am working both saturday and sunday. OHMYGOODNESSGRACIOUS! -.- I am so bored now. Meeting Jueqi at 6pm i supposed but currently rotting infront of my lappy. Awesome boy texting me eventhough he is at work. hehe. Okay i better go now. I will upload the photo here once i uploaded it on my lappy.

Enjoy your day and it's friday !

291110

2010-11-29T13:17:00.004+08:00

Hi humans,
I'm back! This week has been hectic. I started working and thank god sidah and i was send to the same outlet. PHEW ! But i don't know if after the training will we be in the same outlet or not. Hopefully it will. Work have been alright. And my new colleague was good. It was fun working there. It was tiring when you got to climb up and down to get the things down. And i swear i can go blind looking at the small little code every now and then. And my weekend is burned. I work till closing for both saturday and sunday. How awesome is that?!
But i am not working this week. YEAH! I am going off to a short gateway with family. My flight is tomorrow morning. Kinda excited. Awesome boy is being a sweetie pie this few days and he just came back from chalet and i think he is dead-beat. LOL!
And oh i feel so sad the pretty girl below is down with chicken pox. And i kinda visited her last friday. Yeah visiting a friend that is down with a chicken pox is like risking myself from getting it. But thank god nothing happen to me. HEHE beside i have already gotten it when i was little. So no worries.

Get well soon pretty. I know you are being quarantine for freaking 2 weeks but just endure. We will go out when you have recover. Okay?!

And anyway, today is RAYMOND birthday ! Happy 18th birthday dearest buddy! I know you have been waiting for this day for so long. And finally its here. May your best wishes come true and have a blast dude.

Till my next update (:

201110

2010-11-20T19:38:00.006+08:00

Hi humans,
Today was supposed to be a productive day but i rotted at home the whole day watching tv and lazing on the couch. GREAT! The weather really make me feel lazy. GEE. And now i am finding something to do. Kill me ! That awesome boy off to town to watch Harry Potter i assume. Well~ Anyway, did i mention that i found myself a new job?! Oh yes if i didn't, now i am telling you. HEHE. Somebody please kill me. I will not tell where and what job for now. Even if i got the job. They kinda called me yesterday and asked me to go down to their main building for i-don't-what. Sidah is working with me! EXCITED MUCH ! And dear new job, please be nice to me.
And i have started missing my night classes friends. Yes you know who you are people. And we need to have a meet up REAL SOON ! And i miss my secondary school friends :(
Oh and that beautiful girl below is leaving me for CI course for 3 weeks. :( Dear god, please bless her :)
And i need to shop real soon ! I am running out of clothes to wear each day. *Not really actually* I just feel like i am. HAHA !
Okay till here. Happy Weekend Humans !
:D

161110

2010-11-16T15:06:00.002+08:00

MEETING THE BLOODS TOMORROW ! IMMA GETTING IMPATIENT AND EXCITED !

121110

2010-11-12T21:53:00.003+08:00

Hi humans,
I am so happy today. Well, i don't know why. So many things happen today that brighten up my day ! :D And i need to job hunt soon. I need money to shop till i drop. Haha. Well, currently at starbucks with Jue Qi.

Happy weekend people:D

031010

2010-11-03T12:40:00.005+08:00

Hey humans,
I can see that my blog is dying. Well, I've been busy with school stuff and exam. A lot of things happens but yet life moves one no matter how hard it is. Haven't been good lately. I am tired of being tired. Tired of waiting. I will blog soon when i am feeling better and when all my work is done.

:D

071010

2010-10-07T15:32:00.015+08:00

Heyo people !
I am sorry for not updating that much. I've been pretty busy lately with outing, classes and more study and study to be done. Oh yea no more work for me. I send my resign letter last month so yeaa no more work. So i guess i gonna do some work-hunt again after everything is over. New work New experience New friends.
So i am not gonna talk much let the picture do it's talking. I when to Ubin with Npcc mates, shopping dates with girlfriends, dinner with clique.

UBIN TRIP

SHOPPING & MOVIE DATE

Opps i don't have the dinner pictures. My bad.

120910

2010-09-12T03:00:00.003+08:00

Hi Humans,
Look at the time, it's 3.00 am in the morning. I am dead beat but i can't sleep. Tell me about it?! So i decided to blog.

I will upload again when i have the time.
Enjoy.xoxo

040910

2010-09-04T16:02:00.002+08:00

Hi humans,
I want to say thank you to everyone who make my 18th birthday an awesome one. Thanks for all the surprises, presents and all the wishes via texting, facebook and even twitter. Thanks everyone. I really love you all. And thanks for the flower delivery and thanks for coming to my house just to wish me and pass me my present. You guys are just awesome. Thanks for the treat and thanks for the trick. I would not forget all this. I really have an awesome celebration.
And not forgetting , thanks to my caucasian friends for giving me the awesome surprise birthday party and not knowing that i am fasting. HAHA. Sucha cute little thing. They didn't know that i am a malay after so long of hanging out together. -.- But whatever it is, i really appreciate it so much.

Enjoy your weekend everyone :D

010810

2010-08-01T18:47:00.003+08:00

Hi humans,
So those are the photo taken during last week sleepover with Jue Qi. There's more on facebook yo.
And it's already august. It gonna be a good month. YEH.
Nothing much to update. I've been busy with school and work. Tomorrow is monday. Ohh i hate monday!
So humans enjoy your day :D

110710

2010-07-11T16:30:00.001+08:00

hi humans,
I am again, still alive and kicking, unfortunately. The week has been hectic, with significant event and and late nights. Life has been good even though some people can just be a pain in the ass and mess your life. But i am good. I am not letting anybody bring me down anymore. NOT ANYMORE! I know right. No, its just that i has been doing some soul searching and yea i kinda find my old self. I've been having a hard time choosing the right choices and making some decisions and i can't deny it that i am loosing it at times. But life moves on, chin up.
So it's already july and i am freaking out. Exams are drawing nearer then i have ever thought. I am seriously not over it yet. And that's the reason why i've been staying up late just to get things done and, it go to the extent of sleeping at about 4 am in the morning. Ohh no don't get me wrong i didn't watch soccer but at times i do sneaked out from my room and joined my dad and my brother in the living room. Some digression.
Another small digression from what i am going to talk about but i have a tiny confession to make. I'm sick and tired of infatuation and crushes. I just think it's time for me to really settle down. Ohh don't get me wrong, when i say settle down not really getting myself a proper boyfriend but more like get boys out of my life and sit down and so some serious stuff like studying. Yea studying. Okay that is a big dream. I know.
So i have been telling my friends how tense i am now knowing that times really flies and the exams are so near. We're on a race against time. It's not that i want to drag the time before the exam starts but it's just that i need more time. But on the other hand i just want to get it done and over with it.
So yea that's about it.
Okay i got to go now and do some self studying.

:D

250610

2010-06-25T15:41:00.003+08:00

Hi humans,
I am still alive and kicking. My mind has been really preoccupied these days, with so many things going on as the world spins. I wonder why people sacrifice one happiness for another? What if everything is just an illusion? Well, this is life i guess. But whatever it is i am enjoying my holidays with all the studying and all the craziness things around me. I have think and re-think again and again. I gonna make a sacrifice. That is i gonna quit my work. After a second thought, i just think that eventhough i can manage everything while having to study and work, i just felt that something is not right. I need to focus on one thing at the times to make sure that i will be able to achieve that one thing really really well. So after a thoughts, i think studying is much important to me. I need to focus and do well. My exam are in 4 months times and i wouldn't want to do it just fairly but i have to do really really well. So because of that i need to sacrifice my work. I hope what i am doing is right. Because in life, we always have to choose the right path in order to go to our destination smoothly. So yea.
Yesterday was awesome. I met up with my primary school friends. We haven seen each other for ages and i swear he look much more mature and he changed alot. I was a bit nervous but things goes well. He make me feel comfortable when i was with him. We did a lot of catching up yesterday. It was fabulous!
I just so in love with the holidays even though i know i need to do a lot of mugging.
So now, its time for me to aim high and all the way.

Chin up!

130610

2010-06-13T00:27:00.005+08:00

My week was tough but i managed to pulled it through.

Hi humans,
Look at my dusty blog. I haven been touching them for like nearly 2 months or so. I know rightttt. I have been busy with school and work all this while. So by the time i got home, my body is dead. Haha. Okay no! I was too busy and too tired and too lazy to update my lovely blog so i decided to ditch my blog for a while. And today i've got back my senses back and i got the sudden urge to blog. Its random much. But the thing is i really have no idea on what to blog. I have lost touch on how to update a blog. So people bear with me.
My life is awesome even though i have break down quite a number of times but i have learnt that life moves on no matter what. My studies is kinda okay with all the homework and test and everything which drive me nuts. Studying and working sucks BIG time. Its a wrong combination but since i have choose to do both i think i am kinda okay-ish now. Kinda get used to it already. And i am always excited whenever it is the last week of the months. Because i know that's my hard work paid off. My dad wants me to quit because he says he gave me money everyday to school and not forgetting the allowance every months, but i just wants to be a lil bit independent. So he got nothing to say.
Spend my friday with my secondary school clique. They were just as awesome as before. Mixing with them make me really feels like my real self. I have a good laugh with all their crappy jokes. Aww, i miss those days. I miss my secondary school life. I am eagerly waiting for my holidays. One more week to suffer before my holidays comes. I am sexcited !
Okay i am lost. Nothing more to say.
Have a lovely weekends!
(:

250410

2010-04-25T14:11:00.003+08:00

Hi humans,
Its already sunday. Why why why must the weekend ends so fast?! I still need some more time to enjoy and relax and do my own revision. I am running out of time. OHH SHUCKS! Time management fazlin time management ! Its already the end of april which means may is around the corner. 5 MORE MONTHS ! OMG! Okay i think i need to cool myself down. HMPH!
Anyway my week was tough but i managed to push myself though. Schooling and working at the same times isn't easy but i need to endure. Everyday i have a super duper long day with classes and working at the same time. Revision = burn midnight oil. I don't care much as long as i managed to study just one chapter for that night.Thats the minimum. Its better then not doing any right?! I woke up as early as 6 am every morning except for weekend but i guess i have already adapt to it. Its just a part and parcel of life i guess. Studying is a priority while working is just a choice. But i am happy with what i am doing. Its not a burden, its not a hassle. I can't wait for pay day. I need to S.H.O.P ! I am running out of clothes. I am serious. ahha . But again i need to save some money. I have a target for myself that end of this year i need to save certain amount of money. :D

Hmm, i think i need to whine. I just sick and tired of having to give in to people like you. Why must it always be me who is at fault?! Why must it always be me who need to take that initiative?! I am sorry if i have neglect the both for you but i thought you know me well enough to know that you guys will always be with me no matter what. Friends does not always need to be with each other , we just need to be in each other mind. Why can't you understand me? Can you just for once try to be in my shoes? Can you feel how i feel? Can you? Just for once. Maybe to you i may not be a good friends but can you please define what is FRIENDS to you? Because to me, i just have come to term with the fact that not everyone of your friends has to be your bestfriend. A lot of your friends are good at certain things. Some friends you love to go out with, some friends you ask for advice, some friends are great to sit with on the couch and watch movie and make you laugh. And some friends are those bestfriends whom you can trust. But it doesn't really mean friends have to be great at everything.
Okay enough i think i should stop here. I guess i gonna spend my sunday doing as much revision as i can.

XOXO

170410

2010-04-17T12:21:00.000+08:00

Hi Grandpa, it's been a year.
I hope you're doing fine.
I still remember you pacing with your walking stick.
And sometimes lifting it up and walking by yourself if it gets too slow.
I still remember during a family picnic, you got lost and all of us went frenzy looking for you.
And one of your grandchildren came back holding you tight, with bruises and cuts on your face and arms.
I still remember me asking,
'Do you speak English?'
And you'd reply,
'No, but I can speak German.'
And you'd break out into a German song.
I still remember how much I broke down, when I saw your face covered with cloth when you went.
And it was one of the most hardest moments of my life.
I still remember the day where we all left the grave with heavy hearts, wet cheeks and faith.
And I miss you.
Please, please tell me it's gonna be alright.

170410

2010-04-17T11:56:00.002+08:00

Hi human,
Apology for not updating for quite a long period of time. I was busy with class and work at the mean time. YES WORK ! i have managed to get myself a work. My resume that i send that day was successful. It was a miracle for me though. But having to study and work at the same time isn't as easy as what i think it is. There are a lot of pressure and i was really stress at times. Because i need to rushed for classes and keep on telling myself that i need to focus in class so that i won't dose off. And having to managed my time to study after i came back from work its really really hard. When u're back from work the first thing that is in ur mind is u are tired and u wants to sleep. So that it ! But i just love what i am doing now. I don't even have the mindset that what i have been doing right now is a burden. I was always the girl who wanted to be independent and get ur own money and still get the good grades and have all the friends. But at times i started to realise that i wasn't able to do any of them perfectly. I was trying to divide myself in a lot of ways and each was suffering. I had to realise there is no such thing as perfect- u do the best and have fun. But it took a couple of anxiety attacks to figure that out.

Anyway, last week was the buddies chalet ! And yes i have a lot of fun together since we have not meet up for quite sometimes and spending times with each other. The chalet was a successful i should say. It was really fun eventhough i thought it gonna be weird. HAHA ! ANDAND the cool thing is we did our own buddies shirts. (: THANKS GUYS FOR EVERYTHING !
Its already april. Times really flies. And since i am busy with classes and work i don't really have time to wish all my friends on their birthday. SCREW ME FOR THAT ! I am sorry!
But here u go:
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO: IZZAT, FIONA, SYAFIQ,PUVAN !
HAPPY BIRTHDAY IN ADVANCE TO: JOSEPHINE,FARAHH, KAKAK(: AND YATT.
IF I DID MISS OUT ON ANYBODY ELSE I AM REALLY SORRY BUT HAPPY BIRTHDAY AGAIN.

The week was tough, but i still gotta push on.

220310

2010-03-22T21:50:00.003+08:00

hi humans,
I feel like i am dying. Yes dying ! I am supposed to be studying right now but oh well, blogging's is much more important at the moment. I don't know how my life gonna get any worst. Oh please don't screw up my 2010. I just finished my essay like 1 hour ago and now i don't have the mood to study. What's wrong with me?! It is me or the things around me that make me feels this way? I want to be happy can. And for goodness sake i need to be extra extra super duper hardworking this year because it is an important year for me but why am i feeling this way. where's all the motivation and encouragement that i used to have? can somebody knock some sense in me. Yes now right now ! I can't afford to lose anything this year. It is just too valuable too me. And i can't afford to waste any more time. NO ! Oh my goodness gracious.
And what's up with u? Trying to mess up with my life again? Oh please i not gonna entertain your drama-mama and your sweet talks anymore. Enough is enough. And u got the wrong girls because i am not like THOSE girls you met on the net. Yes those girls. You know i meant and please don't act like you are one innocent kids.
Whatever i don't feel good. I gonna spam my tumblr.

(:

140310

2010-03-14T15:11:00.003+08:00

hi humans,
i am happy today. look at the weather! i love rainy days! anyway, i am so productive today. since parents not in town, i woke up and i did the house chores for freaking 2h 30mins . i know rightttttt.. haha. i even mop the floor. and my room is so freaking neat and tidy so do the other rooms, the kitchen and the hall. and i swear i was sweating like hell. and i felt that i just finished my 2.4 run. after doing all those stuff had my shower and i did my revision. i feel like a good girl today. currently, i am alone at home. brother have left for work and here i am lazing on the sofa with the television on and blogging on my lappy(: i guess i gonna continue with my revision soon. because i already planned what i need to study and do for today!
and i am super duper hungry. i haven eaten anything since just now. and there's nothing at home. i am so freaking lazy to go out and buy my late late lunch. ARGH! should i just order for mac delivery?? should i?

and every girl knows a guy like this: he flirt with u, texts u every night before bed and puts out the vibe that he's seriously interested in u. thats is until he chats up another girl at the party or somewhere else , sends a three-word reply to your facebook messages or msn, and acts like he doesn't want a girlfriend. but just as u're ready to give up on him, he makes some irresistibly sweet gesture thats pulls u right back in. and hey i am so over u and i am not gonna entertain your yo-yo attitudes for good.(:

enjoy the rest of the day peeps !
(:

120310

2010-03-12T23:44:00.002+08:00

hi humans,
okay don't asked me why i am i updating my blog now and not last week or yesterday or whatsoever. i am just too busy and plain lazy to update it. but now i am in dilemma. should i go to the dinner at Jurong Chevron tomorrow? OHH GOSHH! okay it was like this, Ariff called me in the afternoon asking me if i am free tomorrow night and so i asked him why. and so he invited me to go to dinner with Eyra and Ms Geetha tomorrow night. i was super blur at that point of time. i swear. so i was like okay okay i will go. then a few hours later i was thinking about the conversation we had earlier and it make me wonder why Ms Geetha didn't text me and all about the dinner until he called me and told me. then just now i decided to text Ms Geetha asking about tomorrow stuff in detail and she told me that tomorrow is Ariff's brother wedding reception. i was damn shocked. and he didn't tell me properly. i just feel like smacking his face. 0.0 but now, i am half-hearted about me going to the dinner because i am not used to this kind of stuff. i will confirm feel very very weird because of the surrounding, the weird people around me ! on top of that i just don't know what to wear ! OMG ! HOW! i am panicky! great just great.
anyway, parents will not be in town tomorrow till monday. and i am left with my irritating brother at home. -.- ohh and The Girls are opening a chalet most probably next two weeks. i am kinda excited though.(: okay i can't stop thinking about tomorrow dinner. if i tell him i can't go it will make me feels bad beside he called me up and invited me eventhough he didn't tell me in detail. screwed him for that. maybe if he were to tell me in detail i will confirm say that i am not free and maybe that's the reason why he didn't tell me. Ooo he know me well enough uh-huh. but if i were to go i will feel very weird and i will not behave like myself. and the worst part is I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO WEAR !
arghh enough. just wish me luck(:

enjoy ur weekends peeps !

010310

2010-03-01T21:06:00.003+08:00

hi humans,
guess what? his back! and i hate it. i hate it. i hate it. wrong timing la boy. let me whine please with cherry on top(:
i can't deny the fact that i am not over him. even how much i tried to move on, the feeling still stay and i kept remembering the time we used to spend together.
i can't deny the fact that i hate him. everytime i tried so hard to forget about him, he will appear before me and give me hope again and again. but i was stupid enough to fall for his false hope over and over again. he left me without giving me any certainty.
i can't deny the fact that i was overjoyed everytime i received his phone called or text messages. but at the same time i was overwhelmed with angered and frustration because i always broke the promise that i made to myself not to entertain him.
i can't deny the fact that i missed him sososo much and i wished i could meet him and gave him a tight tight hugged and never let him go. but i am also waiting for the time when i've got the guts to go to him and give him a tight tight slapped and say, 'shut up and go !'
i wished i could erased all the memories that we share that had stuck on my mind. i wished i have never know him in my life. i am tired of this. i am tired of lying to myself that i hate him but actually i am still stuck in time.

okay enough. ohh i feel so good!
and i am excited because i gonna catch 'dear john' tomorrow!
(:

280210

2010-02-28T02:27:00.003+08:00

hi humans,
apology for not updating my blog. i was busy plus lazy to update my blog. the last few days was busy with class and stuff so my bad. okay lets start. first thing first, i have officially start my classes. but again i am so not use to my new class and my new classmate. i feel very weird and strange around them. the teacher was KINDA okay. but seriously, frankly i find the class very boring. i can't deny the fact. TSK. i hoped i can adapt to it soon. but i don't think it gonna be that easy. i made a few friends there. and one of my new friends asked me a weird question just after we introduce ourselves.
she: u have a boyfriend?
me: aar, nope. why?
she: HAHA! don't lie to me la.
me: -.-! i am not lying la. do my face look like i am joking?
she: okay then why u don't have boyfriend?
me: why must i have a boyfriend?
she: because u so pretty and bubble-ly so u ought to have one.
me: haha that's what u think. i really don't have.
she: why?
me: because i haven found a suitable one. maybe? okay lets change topic.
OMG! what a question to ask just after we introduce ourselves. weird people ! anyway, enough about school/class etc.

i was whining to AIDAH yesterday night yet again. i was feeling so depress and sad and frustrated and angry. i was feeling so wrong yesterday night. but anyway, thanks for listening to my whining! (: i think today i am feeling better. and i hoped the feeling will soon go away.*cross finger and chattering.
so, since i was super stress yesterday night and i can't go to sleep, out of curiousity and boredom i created tumblr. i make myself busy by customizing it and stuff. but hell no, i don't know how to use it. i am so dumb! but i managed to get the hang of it a bit. but let me tell u i just spammed my tumblr. its really help me to realize my stress! i feel so good.
so today, i went out with shopping partner. it was a last minutes thing. she text me and date me out (: hehe. we went to city hall, suntec and marina. it was hilarious went we are at marina topshop. but i lazy to tell leii. SKIP!
then my mum called me and asked me to have dinner with them. plus to celebrate my dad birthday. so from marina we went separate ways and off to meet my family(:
nothing much actually.

p/s: why must u come back? i have a hard time removing u from my freaking thick skull u know. i don't want the feeling to come back. haiz. it just won't work this way.

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY CHARMAINE!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DADDY!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY CONNIE!
(:

230210

2010-02-23T15:48:00.003+08:00

hi humans,
second post for the day. i am feeling so pathetic. and i don't know why. i hate the feeling that i am having now! BUMMER! my mind is not at ease. and guess what i am so dead meat! i almost forgotten about charmaine's chalet birthday party! shit, i know right. thank god satish reminded me like a few days ago. DEAD-MEAT! and now i have to re-planned my schedule. i don't even know if i can even attend her party or not because i got class! OMG how??? somebody help me! i really hoped everything gonna go as planned and i can managed my time properly and go for her chalet even if i can't sleepover! *praying hard and chattering* i suddenly miss all my friends! SYAFIQ i want to bowl again can!! text me!
the weather is being sucha .... i need rain!
anyway, my class starts tomorrow and i am super nervous but at the same time i am feeling excited. NOT! i always hate first day of school or work or watever because it make me feels like i am a secondary 1 kids! hahha.
okay enough talking crap here....
ohh wait NO! i seriously need to play tennis! i need to smack that ball right at your face. i am feeling empty!

(:

230210

2010-02-23T00:46:00.003+08:00

hi humans,
i am a happy kids! i just came back like half an hour ago and here i am using the lappy. movie with girlfriend at AMKhub. we catch the wolfman. it was kinda nice but i swear the sound effect was damn powerful. i was lucky that i didn't suffered from any heart problem or something, or else i gonna die instantly there. hahha! after the showed we quickly rushed back because we need to trained back to woodlands and i need to catch the bus. unlike her she just have to walk home. hmpft.
this morning i woke up at 9 am. i was supposed to wake up at 8 plus to get ready for my gym. but ended up i overslept. BUMMER!
knowing that i woke up late i quickly get ready and off to gym(: ^^
ohh today i am so productive. i follow mummy to somewhere which i never step in before. not gonna elaborate. and before i meet up with girlfriend i managed to do a resume for myself. hopefully i managed to get that job.
anyway, my class officially starts this wednesday. i am sexcited and nervous! i hoped everything gonna be fine. *cross finger and chattering*
my friends had been wondering, how i gonna concentrate with me working and at the same time studying as well. okay listen all my friends, i know studying and working at the same time isn't as easy as what we are thinking but i am doing this because i want to study and at the same time gain experience too. its not really about the salary that i gonna earn at the end of the months. really. money isn't the problem here because my parents had provide me with all of that. i received my expenses every week and i also received my allowance every months. but i ain't a spoil brats. i want to learn how to be independent.
i want to have that experience. some may not agree to my decision but heyy let me try for a few months okay. and i promised i will not neglect nor abandon u guys (:
anyway, justin have force me to make my own timetable so that i will not neglect my study. so with his help i have successfully managed to do my own timetable. and guess what, he have a copy of my timetable. BUMMER ! but anyway, thanks for forcing me(-.-) u are just awesome with cherry on top ! hahha! can u like sense my sarcasm?!
hmm, i am sick and tired of using mac book. i need a change. i want a new lappy can???? hahha. NO! i ain't a spoil brat.

anyway, happy 82th birthday granddaddy! okay i miss u already. i still remembered last year we all celebrate your birthday together. but i didn't know that last year was the last year we all can celebrate it. a few months after your birthday, u fall sick and u are admitted to the hospital and then u are gone. it was heart breaking for me and the rest. but we know u will rest in peace there(:
okay enough of blogging. i need to wash-up and i need to study at least 1 chapter today. yes, i only can study at night when i am at home. it is easier for me to concentrate though.
(:

200210

2010-02-20T21:14:00.003+08:00

hi humans,
just came back from meeting favourite girls. headed to sidah's house. and we were supposed to be studying but ended up we watched dvd. and since we changed the planned we called nabilla to come over. we had movie marathon instead of studying -.- but it was awesome. its been quite sometimes since we did that together. and the best part was sidah cooked for us for our late late lunch. and she scolded me for not knowing how to cook. BUMMER!
but anyway, aidah gonna teach me how to bake. right aidah??? so guys i will bake for u one fine day. hehh.
didn't jogged with daddy for 2 freaking days but instead i went to the gym(: and guess what i make friend with this guy in the gym. it was funny actually but hi new friend. and my bud is aching(Y) hahha.

okay enough of talking and wasting my time here. i have to study ! (:
and this week i don't have any english homework. hohoho. and i am in love with my english class.
all my friends find it weird but hey its not because of that caucasian teacher okay. beside he his not the only caucasian there. the teachers in my english school are all caucasians so there's no big deal. i just like it maybe because of their teaching techniques and the surrounding and the cool friends i had already made. MAYBE!
okay enough!

p/s: u just one pathetic boy. get that in ur head. and ohh please don't ever looked me up. just have fun with ur new girl friends.

(:
STUDY TIME!

180210

2010-02-18T00:21:00.006+08:00

hi humans,
i feel like updating. but i just don't know what to update. this few days have been alright.
catch valentine's day with girlfriend. we watched midnight show and thanks to her i went back at 2am. lols !
its been awhile since i watched movie. i kept thinking about u when i was in the theater. we used to watch movie every week back then but now we don't even contact each other. good things come and go. forget it and lets move on.
i went jogging 3 days straight with dad every morning. woke up as early as 9 am so that daddy won't leave me.. haha..
jogging with him was awesome and we end the jogging session by challenging who reached home first. damn lame but it was awesome fun(:
today was weird. went jogging with dad again. and after jogging i sat at the dinning table where we had our breakfast at. since i am not the kind that eat breakfast so i was staring at the food and trying to relax after jogging. then dad start a convo with me.
dad: tired??
me: what do u think?
dad: evil laugh* not going out today?
me: how to? u don't give me money? give a sad face*
dad: i give u malaysia money.
me: arr no thanks.
dad then grab his wallet and give me 50 bucks
me: OMG ! thanks. Mom i am going out today!
dad: u cannot asked me for money for one month.
me: WHAT???
dad: evil laugh*

haha! he so random.. i like(: i wished he is like this everyday which is super impossible.
but i was lucky enough that i got pocket money every week!
i am sooooo bored but i cannot sleep! GEEZ!

p/s i got ANG BAO! i like(: and i am in love with a book -.-

140210

2010-02-14T18:34:00.002+08:00

hi humans,
First thing first, Happy Lunar New Year to my chinese friends and Happy Valentine's Day to everybody who is celebrating it.
so today is just another random day for me. rotted at home like nobody business.
i seriously don't know what to blog but i do enjoyed myself yesterday with the mates.
i am lazy to elaborate. but i know i have so much fun because that the important thing.
everybody was kinda shocked to see me especially the girls.
they were a little upset i guess because i didn't tell them something that they should actually know.
i am sorry. really really sorry.
i know i should tell u guys earlier or when we called or text each other but i just don't want to make things complicated.
things are just to difficult. it is really difficult for me to voice it up to u all eventhough i know that after telling it all to u guys will make me feels better but something in me is stopping me to do that.
besides, i just don't want to make u guys worry looking at my sad condition. i just want to make everybody happy and thats the reason why i always wear a happy face. because i know even if inside of me is dying i know that i have made u all happy somehow. i am sorry.
and thats the reason why i have changed. but i am happy now somehow. the truth hurt but we have to move on.
thats what i am doing now. but i can't deny that i am blessed with good friends around me(:

this year valentine's day is nothing. i don't want to celebrate it either.
we have been through u left without giving me any certainty.
i wished u know how i feel but unfortunately u doesn't.
but i was shocked to receive ur phone calls.
but the feeling have faded.

120210

2010-02-12T22:56:00.004+08:00

AWWW i missed reading love letters. but it remind me of my high school days.. the first love letter i used to get was in sec 1. it was hilarious back then. i was super scared like a major loser. HAHA! but till now i still keep all the love letters that i used to get in a box safely.. but i don't mind if my mom were to read it because she is not the narrow minded type who were nagged at me and stuff. we are opened to each other(:
and so i am kinda excited for tomorrow lunch date with the fellow mates !!! (:
okay then.

(:

110210

2010-02-11T23:29:00.002+08:00

hi humans,
i don't know how i should start of my entries but today was the day that i was being fooled by Mr. Troublesome. and i swear i look, sound like an idiot. and all thanks to him.. but at the end of it he really make my day. okay that was weird.
he lied to me. he make story, he told me some true story , he make a confession, he told me something stupid and he burst it out to me saying that it was all a jokes. what a drama-mama he is. but he make me laugh, he make me shocked, he make me angry, he make me smiling to my phone.
he was the awesome best best friends i have got. because he told me that he do that just to make me feel better after going through so so much things. AWW! i know right. what a awesome best best friends !!! (:
i appreciate it eventhough it make me feels like an idiots.

i can't sleep peacefully yesterday night and all thanks to u. and i don't think i need to mention name.
i just thought u were one of my favourite friends but i didn't know things turn out to be this way.
i know u want the best for me and thanks for all the advice but your words really pulled me down in someway or another.
nobody want their life to be screwed up. but things didn't always turn out the way u want it to be.
and that is what happening to me. and for every path that i decided to take now, i will really think through and then i will go for it because i have learn my lesson. but the way u say and the way u elaborate it making me look like a loser and i will not make it when i took this path.
and u even try to compare me with this girl that is way way different than me. i am not like her and i know i would not be like her. she's different and so do i. i got my own way of thinking. and i really hate it when people try to compare me with some other person. because i believed that everybody is different in their own way.
i know what i am doing. and i know i am taking such a long path to achieve my dreams but i think time is not the reason why i should not be able to achieve my goals. i will not let ur words pull me down no matter what happen.
because i got all the support that i need from my family and from my other friends . and that is all i need.
and for once stop forcing me to do something that i don't want to do.
i have my own choice and i have the right to decide... and stop threatening me with that phrase over and over again because i will not give a damn on it anymore..
sorry i just need to clear up things that i have bottled up.

(:

90210

2010-02-09T23:38:00.003+08:00

hi humans,
i am bored and i am trying to kill time. i just finished doing my english homework which is due this coming thursday.
and i have to come online to do the work. so i take freaking 3 hours to complete it because i got distraction from using all the other sites and i was watching tv.. goshh that bad.
but i am done and i am satisfied. and lucky my mac book have thesaurus that somehow help me. hohoho.
chinese new year is around the corner so do valentine's day.
talking about valentine's day.. nahhh not interested because it is just another random day. -.-
beside its CNY so most probably most of the shop gonna be closed.. DANG!
but i am excited because i gonna have valentine lunch with mates this coming saturday. ^^
haven been meeting them for ages and for sure there is alot of things to catch up andand not forgetting the camwhore part.
i thought of making for them some cute stuff so that i can give them but i have got no idea what to make-.-
so i have make myself useful at home by helping mummy with the house chores(:
i don't like my hair. hair can u grow faster please please please with chocolate fudge on top(:
i want to watch movie can. somebody ask me out can. anyone??
and i wanna go swimming and gym...
i am dying..

ohh gosh i miss my laughing pills!
(:

090210

2010-02-09T00:11:00.004+08:00

hi humans,
updateupdate.. wanna know my latest news?? i have finally resigned from my current job. so called me a jobless kids again?! i can't be bothered. send my resignation form last thursday and my last day of work was on saturday. 3 days notice like what they told me during the interview. i wanted to stay longer but i can't bring myself to it. ive been enduring for 1 month 1 week and thats it. NO MORE NO MORE! they asked me to stay and their reason for it was CNY coming and they don't have enough worker.
watever with them. i am happier now. i mean i got my life back i got my freedom back. no more waking up as early as 8 am rushed to work and reached home at 1015pm. NO MORE ! and the most weird thing was my friends were all excited when i told them i have quit. -.-! haha! i know rightttt.
sunday was awesome! had my morning jogged with daddy. its been ages mann. i feel so good after the run(: then later in the afternoon saloon-ing with mummy was awesome. and at night movie date with family(:
see i am enjoying my life without YOU ! who say i can't leave without YOU? its been so long since u last msg me and eventhough i can't deny that ive been missing u and missing all the outing that we usually does but i am not waiting for ur text nor ur phone call anymore. and i guess u are having fun right now. i know u too well, boy.

so what am i up to now?? arr i have no idea. maybe rotted at home??
and i am sure people have been wondering which school i will go to and stuff.. i am ready to blog it out.
O level result was out in early january and f**k i was damn disappointed with my result. it isn't what i expected it isn't what i want. most people think that my result isn't thats bad but to me it is the worst result ever.
they offer me poly courses and all but i just can't be bothered with that because from the result i know that i am not qualified for the course i want. the only thing i know is i went back at 830pm on that day wandering alone without anyone knowing.
and went i got back, eventhough my parents didn't say anything i was crying my lungs out. and the only thing i do is lock myself in my room and cry.. but i got the best parents ever. they didn't scold me but instead they give me the encouragement.
they were telling me how lucky am i to pass all my subject but the only thing is i can't qualified for that course that i really really want from the start.
at that point of time i seriously don't know what to do i am clueless i am at my wit end. i don't know if i should just go to poly with that i-am-so-not-interested course and drop out halfway or what.. the only thing i am thinking about was if i could turn the time back... but it is not possible.
so after a deep and throughly thoughts i decided to retake 1 of the subj which is english. but my parents wanted me to retake 1 or 2 other subject since i don't want to get myself into any poly courses and take it at the same time. so ive decided to take english and science. but they insist on me taking emaths since they know that i can score in that subject. they told me what if i can get better grades for maths and that will help me even more in lowering my points. so i agree and ya i am taking private.
it isn't easy when i choose to take up this way because looking at my other friends going one year ahead then me. but i was told by a friend who have been in my shoe a year ago," it doesn't matter how slow u go as long as u do not give up". that phrase really lift up my spirit and just move on. but this year i really need to work hard i wouldn't want to disappoint my parents seeing that they have willing to pay up thousands and thousands of dollar for the privates.
and i am blessed with sucha awesome friends whom always give me encouragement(: and seeing me going through the hard way, some of my friends who didn't do that well also have decided to retake instead of going to the course they don't want and all. thinking back i was damn coward to face the true when i just got back the result. -.-

ohh and i was on my way to meet a friend went i passed by starbucks coffee house and i saw a girl sitting down doing her amaths question. and she really remind me how tense will i get when i can't do that question that were given. i will start throwing the paper and tears almost drop. not forgetting that i used to get 5/50 for one of the class test.. hahha!
but thank god i passed during my O's(:
it is sucha long post...
and" kuku-ness" i am craving for that western food at ur school and fishNco -.- hinthint.

(:

050210

2010-02-05T23:46:00.002+08:00

hi humans,
haven been blogging because firstly i've been busy working and i am running out of idea on what to blog.
life is getting better i guess. work make me sick because it is always the normal routine every now and then.
but i always keep myself updated with what my friends are up to. like duhh. we text everyday(:
just now work was quite okay. since it is friday it isn't that dry. and i am hoping the next two days gonna be just like just now.
because i need the time to passed faster when i am at work.
ohh let me share what happened just now at work.
there's 2 young lady entered the shop and told me that they are here to collect their clothes. and at the mean time they look around and they wanted to try this piece of shirt. so they asked me if i got bigger size because the lady who wanted to try it on is quite big. so i quickly find the stock and gave it to her. and guess what she keep asking me for more clothes. in total she try almost 8-9 pieces -.- and for god sake i have difficulty finding some of the stock because i need to dig it out from the shell.
and every piece she try she will keep complaining. -.- and ended up she just lump all the clothes at one side and went out.
and i was damn pissed at that point of time. because i need to fold and packed it all back. and folding clothes isn't easy as what u think it is especially when it come to BIG size clothes. then here come the best part.
aunty: they went off already without buying anything after trying all this?
me: yupp.. they just try, collect their clothes and buzz off after giving me this shit.
aunty: bloodyfool fucker!
i was shocked at that point of time and i started laughing. i mean she isnt that old but i didn't know that she is so vulgar.
and guess what the girl who work opposite my shop is no longer there -.-

ohh and i am quitting my job really soon. because i think i need to focus.
right, aidah?? okay random. most probably my last day of work will be this coming sunday. (: and no more eyecandy :(
EXCITED ! not EXCITED!
nothing much to say.
anw,
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY FAIZ !
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY SAHAIL ! (:
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY JUE QI !
okay its belated belated belated. but no worry i have wished them thru sms.

i'm off!
p/s: how can i moved on when i still love u. -.-

250110

2010-01-25T01:04:00.002+08:00

" BECAUSE I WANT TO REMEMBERED AS THE GIRL WHO ALWAYS SMILES EVEN WHEN HER HEART IS BROKEN, AND THE ONE THAT COULD ALWAYS BRIGHTEN UP YOUR DAY EVEN IF SHE COULDN'T BRIGHTEN HER OWN. "

250110

2010-01-25T00:10:00.003+08:00

hi humans,
i know i haven been updating and the previous post was like a crap. i haven behaving like myself lately. i seriously don't know izit me or just things that had happened around me that make me feel this way. i've been feeling cranky and i have this little feeling in me which i just don't know how to get rid off or deal with it. i've been keeping myself busy with work so that i would not really think about it. so the last few weeks i was busy with work work and more work. i worked everyday from 10am to 9pm daily without taking a break. u may think i am crazy but i just need to occupy myself and make myself busy.
working suck big time but for the sake of it i am enduring it. i miss ALL my friends, the clique, the girlfriends, the hangout partners, shopping partner, whining partner, movie date partner and so muchhhhh moree. i know i have been neglecting u guys but i am sorry, just give me sometimes and we will meet up like we used to be. but at the moment the least things i could do it text u guys. but just remember that i will always be here for u to have a chat or something aite.
the last few days parents fetch me from work so i am lucky tho because there's no need for me to train-ed home and all.(:
i am lost for words now. damn!

okayy please let me let out what i've been bottled up all along.
lovelovelove! everything was a lie all along. i messed up and it wasn't right. i have nightmare about it every night. to some people love is great but to others it is something to hate. this isn't what i wanted, this isn't what it seemed. everything i've been through seems like a big dream. this isn't what i wanted between me and u. but i know i'll never have a another chance ever again. i wish i could tell u how i feel. but doing something like that couldn't be real. but what puzzles me the most was the conscious effort to be connected with the object of affection even if it kills me slowly within.
so if 'leaving' is your decision i will have to accept it. but for once u are a coward because u're living just like that, making yourself disappear.

i'm off.

190110

2010-01-19T22:52:00.003+08:00

i miss them (look up)*
i miss all my friends. and i wish i could upload all my friends photo here but blogger is being sucha ... -.-

nobody want it to happen this way. neither do i.
i just can't faced the fact. i hate it !
***
please leave if u want to break my heart.
i wouldnt want to be hurt no more. i have enough.
i have enough of waiting. please tell me the truth.
i am not strong enough to be left this way.
i dont have the guts to confess and tell u how i feel.
i only can tell u through words and thats it.

i am feeling cranky this few days. and i hate this feeling.
will do a proper blogging the next time, hopefully.

110110

2010-01-11T00:00:00.003+08:00

hi humans,
look at the time now. and yes i can't sleep.. i am wide awake.
i can't stop thinking about my result that i will be taking tomorrow or must i say later in the afternoon.
OMG! i am freaking nervous. watever it is i know that i have given my very best.
i just hope that everything gonna be fine.
thanks to all my friends and cousin that have wish me luck because i need all those luck. but the more they wish the more nervous i am getting. DANG !
so. GOOD LUCK TO THOSE WHO GETTING THEIR RESULT TOMORROW ! (:

anyway, working just now and i am super bored to the max.
but i was surprised when i saw my parents came over to my work place. HAHA!
i was stoning and suddenly i saw familiar people. they shopped at the shop i am working then they walk around there to kill time while waiting for me. so i was lucky today no need to take train home.(:
drive to airport for dinner. ate swensen.
actually tomorrow is my off day and planned to go out with some friends but ended up is result day.
what a bummer !
anyway work was kinda okay.. i think now i am kinda get used to the aunty i am working with.
i managed to make her get along with me. maybe not 100% but 65% of it.
i got the urge to shopped but i just don't have the time now.
so packed with work and all.
friends all have been asking me to hang around and meet up with them but unfortunately i only got 1 day off every week.
its really tight. GOSHH ! sorry my friends.

guess what i just can't be bother with what u wanna do now.
its really up to u. i try to understand u but its just too difficult for me.
u will only get to me when u need me. might as well u just stick to the girls that u are having fun with right now.
because i am different i am not like them. get it that straight to your thick skull.
i am trying hard to forget u. there are really a lot of memories but yet i know it is nothing to u.
so why must i waste my time waiting.
tsk.

OHH I MISS MY GIRLFRIENDS ! :(

i'm off people !
(:

060110

2010-01-06T23:33:00.003+08:00

hi humans,
i am DEAD-BEAT ! i am totally worn out.. just came back from work 1 hour ago.. but thank god today is not as bad as yesterday.
because yesterday sucks to the max. this is what happened when u have aunty as a colleague.. NONO i am not being mean here or what so ever.. i am serious.. maybe not all aunty but some aunty can be sick in the ass.. i am so sorry..
i just stated working there and i didnt know that i have to work with her untill yesterday.
and yesterday she really spoil my mood. she have that not-happy-face. and she will give that-black-face to everybody.
and the way she talk is like u-have-got-me-into-trouble-so-i-am-giving-u-this attitude-voice. yesyesyes i am not kidding here.. but in the way or another i am trying hard to give in to her since she is an aunty.. so i dont really bother about her..
so the only thing i can do is be nice to her no matter how bad her attitude is..
i just want her to get "hooked" to me so that she will be nicer and friendlier to me.. so that the whole point of being good to her.
okay it sounded bad but thats the only way i could get her so that she can get along with me so that we can work better.. RIGHT?!
so today i have been EXTRA SUPER DUPER NICE to her.. i help her with some of her works and i talked to her ALOT like asking question.. i dont care if she dont like to talk, but i just talked to her. beside i am super bored that is one thing..
but at the end of the day i think she is quite comfortable with me.. HAHA !
she even asked me help her to find white hair. and her reason for that is because she gonna cut hair tomorrow and she dont want them to see her white hair. -.- i know right.
but she's not that old. i think around 50 ish . and because i like to talk to her, i know where she live and how many children she have and she told me have shopped for CNY like 1 week ago.. GOSHH !
told my mum about this and she say i am not in the right mind.. HAHHA
beside talking to her, i smile to almost everybody i see at that shopping centre. haha!

anyway, O level result will be out next week 11 january at 2pm. I AM SO DAMN NERVOUS AND I CANT STOP THINKING ABOUT IT. NO KIDDING HERE ! OMG, i just hope my result will be as good as what i expected it to be.. please.
its my life mann !
working tomorrow AGAIN !
but i think schooling is much much much more better !
and now i miss school and i miss my classmates ! goshh i miss playing charade in class!!!
anddd i miss my girls ! haven meet them for almost 1 week !
workworkwork ! i thought of quiting but i think i need to challenge myself so i am giving myself 1 month to work there(:
i wanted to try new thing instead of doing F&B all the time but ... always expect the unexpected dude.
arghh! i got the urge the shopp !!!!!

told ya i miss school ! but the photo i just get what i can cos i lazy to find more !
okay enough of crapping.. sleeping soon have to wake up early tomorrow !
wish me luck handling that aunty (:

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY SHARIFAH !!!! (:
i'm off !

030110

2010-01-03T15:15:00.003+08:00

hi humans,
its already 2010 ! cheers for that ! let this post be the first post for 2010..
so 31 Dec 2009 was awesome ! we work, we dance, we went crazy, we have fun, we countdown !
i didn't expect that it going to turn out to be suprerduper fun with all the friends and company. but like people say always expect the unexpected.. so we went back superduper late.. i reached home at 3am.. -.-
so since it is a new year, i wanted this year to be more special.. i don't want the mistake that i make in 2009 to repeat itself..
yea i have make a new resolution for 2010.. and i will try my very best to achieve it..
so the first resolution is to get good result for O level.. and the result will be out real soon.. OMG !
the other resolutions will be kept within me.. hmm.
so like i say i really hope 2010 will be a better year for me..

and so since it is a new year,
i think its better for us not to be closed anymore
i just don't know how to say this
i just can't put my feeling to words.
i wouldn't want to be selfish so i think its better for us not to be closed. i think its better this way
i have tried so hard to put everything in place but u just wouldn't understand me..
no matter how much i tried to show u, u just can't be bothered with that..
so i wouldn't want to waste time on that because i know life is not all about that..
i just hoped u learn, learn to appreciated thing.

picture time but i didn't upload all .

i was dare by them to wear that yellow thingy out..
i was damn paiseyy can because when we were walking and when we board the train everybody was staring at me..
hahha

(:

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY AHMAD NAUFAL !
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JORDAN !
enjoy (:

301209

2009-12-30T22:43:00.004+08:00

hi humans
2009 is coming to the end.. one more day left and there we are saying goodbye to 2009.
so before it end let me do a last post.
yea i know there is still tomorrow but i don't think i gonna be that free to update it tomorrow.
so yea better do it today, now.
2009 hasn't been really a good year for me but nevertheless i have enjoyed myself with great friends and classmates who are willing to be there through thick and skin.
but still i would not forget the problem that i have to face through throughout the months. its really hurt me a lot and i have to face it all alone and trying hard to focus on O level.
but i was lucky enough to have some friends who really help me and lessen my burden.
really appreciated it a lot. and i will not forget the time when i really feel stress out, i will spill nonsense and throw my tantrum to my friends. especially "kuku-ness". but thank god she really understand me and don't mind me saying it all..
even how many times i told her the story and keep whining to her she will always tolerate my nonsense..
ohh mann i just love her alot.. i just don't know what will happen to me when she is not there at that point of time ..
even during the O level period she keep encouraging me and keep asking me not to have that negative thoughts.
okayokay.. no words can describe her .. she is just the best (:

so 2009 is coming to the end but yet i didnt managed to completed my 2009 resolution.
i feel like a loser tho. -.-
so i wonder what i gonna do tomorrow since it is the last day of 2009 ..
and i still have not make up my mind if i should go work or go out and have some fun..
but the thing is they are paying 10buck for an hour.. but actually its not really about the bucks la.
i am half-hearted ! shucks !
so i hope 2010 will be a better year for me and i really hope i will not repeat the same mistake again.
and i really want to forget him.. really..
like what i say in my previous post what's the point of waiting if he really dont bother about u.
maybe it's time to move on (:
so its better for me to leave. i hoped u will learn how to appreciate things that are infront of u.
and for her, stop making used of people and please have a life.
and O level result will be out REAL soon.. Ooo .

i'm off then.
(:

271209

2009-12-27T00:57:00.003+08:00

hi humans,
haven been blogging.. i dont know why i somehow have lost interest in blogging.. dont asked why..
tsk. i really dont know, nowadays i kept asking myself question. question without an answer.
i wished i could find all the answer to my question..
alot of things had happened and i dont wished to recall them all..
suddenly i have the urge to blog..
Christmas was okay.. no comment on that..
diana's christmas party just now was kinda awesome.. since i haven meet that woman for ages..
had a good laugh with them although inside of me is dying..
they brighten up my day today.. i need my laughing pill please..
i love christmas party because i love presents.. hehe
okay seriously i dont know what to blog.. shucks this sucks..

okay let me whine please..
i hate the feeling inside of me now.. i mean now right now..
i dont know it is me or people around me.. i just feel pressurize..
i dont know whats wrong with me. i just felt that i am so weak now..
arghh i want to get out from this feeling but i just dont know how..
i wish u were here with me but u never understand how i feel about u no matter how much i show u..
so why must i bother because i know what i gonna wish for would not come true..
it is just a waste of time.. i think i have hurt alot of people but i just wish u understand me..
i want to say goodbye to 2009 and start afresh.
please give me that chance .. -.-

i'm off !
(:

psst : alvin and the chipmunks is so cute ! i wish i can bring them home.

111209

2009-12-11T13:46:00.003+08:00

TSK.. i really miss my classmate !

sorry for not updating my blog for quite sometimes..
i've been busy and very lazy to update this dusty blog of mine. all this while i've kinda do a soul searching for myself..
and i realize that life is not a bed of roses.. life is more then that..
at times i really need to lie to myself that i'm happy ..
life is not like fairy tales that always have a happy ending. they are all fake..
in life good things always comes to the end very fast.. there's nothing much u could do about that.
i always tried hard, very hard to show others that i am happy so that they won't get worried and kept asking me what happen.
but at times i just failed to do that because i have a friends that really know me well..
even how hard i tried to hide my real feeling they will somehow know it..

-----

maybe i should write more.. and i wrote but i deleted a huge load.
but does it matter?
i'm sorry i just feel like a total ...

021209

2009-12-02T22:29:00.002+08:00

hi humans,
its already december. time flies.
but suddenly i remembered about the O level exam that i took a month ago or so..
yes i may have taken it a months ago but the feeling of insecurity and anxiety had not diminished with time.
i may have felt relief that it was all over and even told myself that i have done my best but the conviction soon disappeared.
ohhmyy! it's over anyway.. i am over it not..
i wonder how's my result gonna be like..

okay this week have been great unlike last week..
so on monday went to work.. work at Laguna Resort because they have an event there so they need worker..
at first i dont wanna go but after having a great pressure from the two girls i went..
i know WTH right. beside i need to hand-in the form so that they can transfer my salary in.
nabilla managed to called quite a number of people to helped out in that event.
they are sidah, shahirah, me, syafiq, aqil, syafiq's friend and her cousin .
finally, after 75372 days i managed to meet up with them..
work with them was awesome.. the endless story that we shared and the laughed we had its just so fun...
ohh i already missed them :(
disturbing one another is just so funny and hilarious..
and i swear syafiq is so blur.. and he got scolded by nabilla. and he came to me with that empathy face..
so started work at 5 end at 11p.m .
and guess what i managed to get the last bus home..
wanted to take cab home once i reached woodlands interchange but sidah insisted of me checking it first..
so she accompany me and her eyes was so sharp that she screamed and say that was the last bus..
we run like nobody business and i managed to hop in..
wave goodbye to her..
i love her to the max!:)

so tuesday and today i rotted at home..
lazed around at home watching tv and movies..
and i need new books !!!
baby sit today was fun.. she is just so fun to be with.. she entertained me today.
so tomorrow plan was to go out with sylvia and cherilyn..
haven meet them for ages.. kinda excited for tomorrow..
then friday meeting diana and maybe the girls if they are coming along..
and u guys better be good and come along.. puhlesss!!!
okay i really dont know what else to blog..
but i need a job can..

HAAPY BIRTHDAY GATSPER !

:)

291109

2009-11-29T15:10:00.005+08:00

JUSTIN BIEBER ! look up*
he so cool !!! O.o.o

hi humans,
next year is just one more month.. kinda excited..
i hope 2010 will be a better year for me (:
tomorrow is the starting of a new week and i really hope it will be better..
quite a number of plan is waiting for me..
EXCITED ^^ at least there is something for me to do then rotting at home.. BOOHOO !
i have started to miss everybody.. and i miss school !
-.-
anw,
HAPPY BELATED 17th BIRTHDAY JESLIN (:
HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY RAYMOND (:
best wishes*

Just a fraction of your love fills the air
And I'd fall in love with you all over again yeah
(:

281109

2009-11-28T13:48:00.002+08:00

hi human,
there's nothing much i wanna blog about..
let me summarized it all.. yesterday supposed to go to my grandma house at sengkang but my grandma is over at my aunt's place in semei.. so everybody make our way to simei instead..
everybody was there.. there's alot of foods. yes as usual !!! the aunties and the uncles and the cousins are all there..
i have difficulty choosing what to wear.. so ended up i wore my green baju kurung..
as usual i took a long time to get ready and stuff.. sorry u guys have to wait..
meet the cousins.. when cousin meet cousin = awesome stuff ! hehh..
eat, talk, gossip, cam-whore was fabulous !!!
although we just met a months or so but still we miss each other...
p/s i miss my granddad !

u text me and apologies to me.. i really dont know what's your real motive here..
whenever u apologies and whenever i forgive u, u will still repeat the mistake again..
so let me asked u ,what's the point of apologies?!
ohh girl please learn from your mistake..
jealousy bring u no where.. get over it.. everybody have their own flaws and everybody have their own speciality..
girl, wake up and be mature can.. i think u are big enough to think and ponder..
i felt sorry for u.. nobody can help u if u dont help yourself..

okayy ignore that paragraph.. :)

enjoy your weekend :)

251109

2009-11-25T20:51:00.003+08:00

hi humans,
yesterday prom was a blast ! it was awesome fun ! i thought it gonna be boring but it turn out to be the unexpected..
i not gonna blog what really happened yesterday.. i will just blog the rough idea of it..
i went with my prom date raja ahmad rizal.. i was damn nervous i tell u..
okayy enough.. we cab down to Calton Hotel. so i waited for the guys which is my prom date, Mr.Troublesome and calvin to pick my up at my house.. Mr.Troublesome is so troublesome cos he changed planned last minutes. GRR..
nevermind with that.. so after that i waited for them for so long.. try calling Mr.Troublesome but OMG i dont know what happening to his phone. i tell u, u should just dump ur phone in the dustbin..:)
we reach there on time..
so the first part we play game then we cam-whored while waiting for fooood !
but most of us were more interested in cam-whored then eating.. hahha !!
everybody there look awesome ! and the guys who is always nagging at us is so into cam-whoring i tell u..
suddenly they become very vein. HAHA! but isnt that a good thing?!
then got some concern by our own schoolmates. they were awesome..
and the part that everybody is waiting for .. PARTY TIME !
everybody were very high and we dance like mad .. HAHHA!
Ohhhyaa i got dance with my prom date also when they put up a love song .. OMG !
yadayadayada. then it ended at around 11pm.

after prom, the sec 5 decided to go slack.. so we decided to go esplanada and slack..
while waiting for the guys to buy drink we all do stupid thing.. HAHHA
most of them were drunk.. OMG it was tiring entertaining a drunk person cos they spout nonsense from the beginning to the end... hahhaa
the girls left the place at around 1 plus.. took cab from there.. i was the last one to alight -.- !
so send puvan then maine then jasmine and i send myself home..
i was very tired and dizzy..
we entertain maine cos she was drunk.

part of the convo,
maine: where are we going?
me:go home la
maine:i cannot go home..
puvan and jasmine:why?
maine:send me to suntec i got work later my boss kill me.
we all:its only 2 am..
maine:yess i got work..

OMG.. got alot of thing she say.. we just have to entertain..
on my way home , Mr.Troublsome called me and he stated talking rubbish with me..
OMG i was damn pissed cos i was very tired !!! but i let him crap ! -.-
i reached home at about 230 am..
ohh goshh i was so tired..
this morning i woke up and i quickly check my phone and i realized that ive got 10 new messages !
i have difficulty replying them.. BOOHOO !

nothing much.. i need a job !!

:D
p/s i didnt bring my camera cos my handbag is too small. but we took picture with other people camera.. more photo in fb:)

231109

2009-11-23T00:02:00.003+08:00

Back from the party !
I feel so bored nowwww !

221109

2009-11-22T12:58:00.002+08:00

hi human,
i am dead beat from yesterday event.. my whole body is aching like nobody business ! DANG !
yesterday planned was to meet up with the girls and headed to town.
but sidah cannot make it so left with me and nabilla.. so we continue with the planned..
we meet up and we are halfway there.. i mean to town.
suddenly nabilla's bother called and say that he need helper to help him with some stuff and it is kinda urgent..
nabilla's uncle is the manager of this resort and he need some help at this event that afternoon.. and we must be there by 5pm.
i was like WTH ! i wanna go town.. but then i decided to follow nabilla and help out.. yes of course we got our pay but damn it was tiring..
we have to do waitress-ing job which i haven done for *&%%$ years ago..
start at 5pm and end at 11pm.. from there we quickly rushed so that we would not missed the last shutter bus that will bring us to simei mrt station.
yadayadyada i reached home at around 12 plus almost 1 am.
me and nabilla were very hungry because we haven eat at all.. i mean we didnt have a proper meal..
the only meal i have is a cup of milo for breakfast.. hmpf
and thank god it lasted until i finish worked..
went i reached home i wanted to eat but i was too tired plus my body is aching..
i am energy-less.. beside its already so late..
eating at night = fats !
so i took my shower and off to bed !

so today planned..
i have to attend a birthday party which is held at a chalet..
woohoo i am excited !
going there with the tuition mate which i haven meet them for so so so long..
my tuition teacher wanted us to go together so she will be fetching everyone of us..
i told u i have an awesome tuition teacher !
ohhyaa and i haven decide should i or should i not go for my primary school BBQ pit..
they invite me but i feel so weird because we haven be meeting each other accept for some of the guys la..
i must give my answer by this coming tuesday weather i am going or not..
HOW????
and this coming tuesday is PROM DAY !
i am excited ! NOT ! i dont know !!! suddenly feel so nervous..
hahh i know WTH right ..
so i guess i will go there with satish and raja..
we will go there by cab.. DUHH! there's no way i wanna take train and travel with the dress on ! HAHH
so where u guys will be fetching me??!!
hehe..

nothing much to blog accept that my body is aching !!
LALALA!

p/s
everything is just too complicated this day.
i dont know should i believe u or not..
because the things that u have done to me months ago really leave a big impact on me..
i thought i can believe u but things always turn out to be different..
and now u get back to me and acted like nothing happen..
i am doubting u. yes i am.. i am sorry..
maybe it is just my mind playing a game on me..
but those things that u have done would not just faded like that unless u prove me wrong..
when i asked u something u will always twist the story and make it sound soo complicated..
and cant u just tell the truth instead of twisting and changing the story?!
this thing really makes me wonder.
u think when u do that i will not know.. but hell no.. i know u well.. i know hows ur reaction when u didnt say the truth.
but u just deny everything so i follow with the flow.

wishing upon a broken star (:

211109

2009-11-21T00:27:00.005+08:00

hi humans,
i didnt wanna to update my blog but Mr. Troublesome is very worried about me not updating it.. he have been reading my blog like a storybook.. O.o.o he told me he wanna be my number 1 fan.. hahha!
so where do i start?!
okay i found a nice prom dress for myself after a long day of dress hunting with that pretty woman at town.
it was a hectic day i tell u. went to Orchard and luck wasnt at our side. it was raining..
sadly we didnt bring any umbrella with us.
so we are stuck at TAKA. for about 20mins and we didnt wanna wait no more.
we decided to walk under the rain.. we keep walking and walking untill we are lost because we wanted a shelter so BADLY.
we realize that we have gone to the wrong place when i saw the someset mrt station. WTH!
i wanted to take train badly and alight at orchard but that pretty woman was so stubborn and wanted to walk.
i was damn -.- !
so we continue walking and make our way to Far East Plaza since most of my friends told me that they sell most of the prom stuff there..
by the time we reach there we are drench (not really drench la, hehe) . what a day !
but i had fun. DUHH! its been awhile since i walk under the rain .. it is just so nice.
i just feel so good..
so we walk and walk and walk and keep trying and trying till i am satisfied with the dress.. i know WTH right.
after finding my stuff and all, i follow that woman to find her shoe since she start working today.
she is another troublesome kids. all the shoe there she dont like.. so we have to keep walking and find a perfect shoe..
girls are girls. :)
yea so had pizza hut for dinner and i am seriously pissed with their service.
they are slow and blur. ARGHH!
but again i have a FABULOUS day with that pretty woman ! (:

so today supposed to meet the usual clique but it was cancel due to some reason..
then suddenly nabilla text me at noon and wanted me to catch a movie with her but..
but looked at the weather it is so cosy which it is just nice to just lazed around at home and sit on a couch and watch tv..
HAHHA! right?!
i am sorry my dear..
so because of that i am meeting her tomorrow and yaa we going town !!!
kinda excited but i dont know what to wear. i've been going out except for today and so i kinda lost on what should i wear.
SHUCKS! nevermind !
i am kinda excited for the prom.. wait but at the same time i am not..
WAIT, i dont know ! arghhh!!!
and i told the guys what if last minutes i back up from the plan..
they say they gonna roll me and carry me upside down..
i feel so scared ! not ! hahh

okay look at the time now, currently it is 1 am.. i seriously dont know what to blog..
i am trying to squeeze my brain juice..
and let me tell u it have been a long time since i have squeeze my brain juice.. i think..
so my brain is getting rusty..O.o.o maybe i should polished it up..
okay i know i sounded a bit weird today ! everybody say that went i talked to them on msn...
ohhyaa i need to find present for Mr. Important ! i owe him birthday present !
he waited for so long but i just dont know what should i get for him..
i just feel that it is so difficult to find a present for guys unlike girls..
he gave me a cute and special birthday present so i must find something nice too right :)
i am in dilemma -.-

p/s
he say he is going AGAIN !!!
WTH righttt !! very sad..
imy(:

anyway HAPPY SWEET 16th BIRTHDAY, EYRA ! (:

(:

181109

2009-11-18T16:04:00.002+08:00

hi humans,
this week is kinda hectic with this and that.. but i enjoy it because i will not have to rot at home.
at least there is something for me to do..
so monday out with the girls.. i swear it was tiring but it was fun..
the whole day out with them can make me go insane with all the jokes, gossip and yaa ..
hahha.. even though my cell phone battery went flat that day but i never feel the boredom with them around..
we was dead beat by the time we reached home.. our feet were aching..
OMG i already missed u guys.. i want outing again !!!!
so on tuesday which is yesterday i went out again to attend something which is quite important..
the guys asked me to go to the cage with them but unfortunately i cant follow.. maybe next time dude..
heard from them they had fun down there.. yea so isnt that a good thing?!
today was supposed to go out but i am super lazy and i feel super exhausted from the yesterday things.

so the plan for today is just rotted and lazed around at home.. beside its raining and yaa i love rain !
but cannot rain everyday la because later my planned will all go haywire.
tomorrow i am out again maybe to the town..
i need my prom dress.. i heard all the guys have bought their prom outfit already.
and the way they describe their outfit was very fabtastic.. HAHA!
because i can imagine them in it..
but seriously i feel so depressed without a prom dress !! argh !
i hoped i can find one tomorrow.. so prom dress hunting tomorrow !!!
diana text me just now.. ohhmyy i missed that woman !!
i wanna meet out with everybody especially the usual bunch ! i wanna go school please*

chat with quite a number of people yesterday night and one of them is satish.
and damn i know u are reading and viewing my blog every single day, every hour, every minutes and every second.
okayy i am exaggerating.
and that close friend of mine wanted me to blog about him so much..
but unfortunately i really dont know what to blog.
but i tell u he can read my mind.. i am serious.. he always know what i am thinking..
even if we are chatting in the msn he can even predict whether i am in a good mood or not, whether i am having problem or not.. he is just so awesome to be with..
i am so blessed with many awesome friends around !! O.o.o
and ohhyaa satish u owe me a treat !! hahha !!

nothing much to blog about..
so poops just enjoy the holidays and have fun..
and i need a job seriously..

(:

151109

2009-11-15T15:40:00.002+08:00

ohhmyy !!
i just realize that i haven got myself a prom dress!!!
SHUCKS!
thanks rairul for reminding me about the upcoming prom !
damn!
and his back !!!
:D

151109

2009-11-15T14:11:00.002+08:00

hi humans,
gym with nabilla this morning was awesome !
we are dead beat ! i swear there is a lot of people especially muscular man in the gym doing their workout..
we were speechless and dont know what exactly to do when we stepped in..
hahha. but yea we manage to do something.. NO WE DID ALOT OF THINGS..
bumped in to one of my guy friend there.. he got muscle ! -.- O.o.O.o
okayy so something happen after that.. which i not gonna post it here.. its between me and nabilla !
damn weird i tell u ! and she felt disgusted ! hahha. my bad.

currently rotting at home as usual.. chatting with satish is really annoying.
he cant stop disturbing me.. ohh not forgetting his stupid crappy jokes..
and my parents thought i have gone insane laughing and smiling to the lappy. -.-
i missed my classmate ! damn!
i wanna go swimming !! i wanna play basketball !!

so all this while i have make myself useful by having movie marathon and reading alot alot alot of books..
i need more books !
maybe i need a job to keep myself occupied. but then its difficult to find job now.. argh !
forget it. i will find one soon!
i cant wait for tomorrow.. out with the usual clique ! heehe. EXCITED ! cos i missed damn so much..
so what's the plan for today?
hmm i have got no idea.. maybe stay at home.. i not sure if i going out or not later.. tsk3

ohh and his coming back today !!! i can't wait ! hohoho..
chat with oreo partner yesterday.. and yea thanks a million for helping me out yesterday..
i was lucky enough dude !

i have nothing more to update..
(:

*i believe in originality. u dont have to follow others to make yourself look great or feels great.
u dont have to do that to make others feel interested in u.
but anw again its ur own choice.. nobody can help u if u doesnt help urself.

141109

2009-11-14T17:18:00.002+08:00

CONFUSED !

p/s
why must u go today?! aren't we supposed to meet today?!
but i am glad that u texted me before u left this morning..
i will be waiting for tomorrow !

and ohh i love my nails !
hehhe..

121109

2009-11-12T10:10:00.003+08:00

so hey look at the photo above.. isnt she cute?! her name is Pera Mika.
it is name after the mistake i have done in emaths during tuition. it is suppose to be called as TERA but i say it as PERA.
everybody was like 'what is that? how come i dont know!' HAHA and i am laughing knowing that i have made a silly mistake.
so the 4 of them including my tuition teacher keep disturbing me..
ohh wait, u must be wondering since when i have group tuition..
i am suppose to have one to one tuition but there is not much time so my tuition teacher decided to combine all the tuition together.. at first she though it gonna be a weird kinda of tuition since everybody dont know each other. i thought so too.
everybody though so too.. but it ended up to be a fun one.. everybody get along well..
when we communicate it sounded like we have known each other well.. well enough..
aww i miss that group.. 2 boys 2 girls and 1 tuition teacher.
so where does MIKA come from.. there's another girl in the group who are crazily in love with MIKA..
she so not over him.. she keep talking about him.. we even watch his video together.. WE ARE GOLDEN !
so yayy.. so we decided to combine it..

hi humans,
i feel so good today.. went jogging with my dad early in the morning before he goes to work..
ohhmyy its been awhile since i went joking especially with daddy..
we jog around the estate but we took the longer route this time around.
it was tiring but it was fun..
when we are reaching we challenge each other to see which one of us will reach first..
ohhmyy my dad run quite fast.. never judge a book by the cover but unfortunately i won. hehe!
reached home suppose to have a light breakfast but i am not the type who eat breakfast so i just glup a glass of water.
i wanna jog againnnnnn...
okay so whats the plan for today..
hmm ive got no idea..
the only thing i know is i seriously need to clean up my room..
yayyy..
anyway, sylvia is leaving to china today for a vacation..
have a nice trip girl.. and get loosen up after a long hectic and chaotic months.
imy!

okayy then
:D

111109

2009-11-11T21:02:00.003+08:00

hi humans,
look at the date.. its 111109. its the day that every O level student had been waiting for..
O level is officially over ! today is the last paper.. i just hope that what ive been doing all this months will start showing and pay off..
anyway O level is over means that i have got back my freedom..
OMG! i am excited.. i miss going shopping, basketball with mates, chill out like nobody business, reading bookssssss etc..
okay actually there are alot of things that are going on my mind..
i just cant wait to partyyyyyyy !!!
but apart from that i am already missed my classmates. i gonna miss all the fun time we had together as a class especially PE lesson.
ohhyaa i gonna missed my class partner. i still remember the time when we sneak in junk food in class and started eating during lesson, playing bingo and charade and some other nonsensical stuff.. i gonna missed the time when we cam-whore and stuff..
okay there are alot of things that are haunting me and make me feel that i wanna go school again..
but good things come to the end. there is always the time that we could gathered everybody and have fun again right..

so just now right after paper we went for lunch.. there are 7 of us and yea we make the place very noisy with our laughter and crappy jokes..ohhmyy it is just so funnnnnnnnnn !!!
okay maybe i should STOP!

nothing much to blog about..
yesterday i have fun chatting with oreo partner.. and he is so stress with his school..
no worries boy u will do good.. he is the best oreo partner mann.. we share alot of stuff !
hahh it is just so weird and funny..

i am so sorry about yesterday.. i dont know what to say. i am just speechless..
i know it is my fault for making u feel that way but i just couldnt do much to help u.
i had explain to u everything i just hope u understand.
i dont know if u are reading this or not but i just hope u do..
i dont know what will happen to our friendship after yesterday..
but i really hope that it will continue to glow and hope that nothing would change..
but i know i couldnt expect much from u..
at times i just dont understand myself either so i cant make others understand me..
but i am just so fortunate to have a friend like u eventho we only communicate thru texting and msn but u really make an effort to know me better. and yea u did it.. u know me more then i know u..
u are a good friend i just hope that u will have a brighter life ahead of u..
i am sorry for everything...

(:

091109

2009-11-09T11:51:00.004+08:00

hi humans,

ive got no idea why but i just dont feel good this few days.. i am feeling down.. and i dont know why..
seriously. i am trying hard to give a happy face and a cheerful smile to let everybody around me think that i am a happy girl.
i missed my old self. i missed the time when i am always cheerful and eventho there is something worrying me but i can overcome it openly..
i am tired of giving a fake smile while inside of me are dying..
tsk.. i missed the usual clique.
i missed my cousin.
i missed my classmate.
i missed my outside friends.
i miss everybody...
and i miss u..
BADLY..

O's is ending soon.. and i gonna get my freedom back soon.
i am supposed to be happy, aint i?
but i just cant feel it.. OMG !
i need my happy pills.. i need my laughing pills.
ohh gosh i dreamt of grandaddy yesterday and i dreamt of him yesterday..
what does it mean?!
the only thing i know is that i missed my grandaddy..
i missed the time we had together.. if only u can come back...
but the other dream.. hmm ive got no idea..

u always make me happy.. u never failed to cheer me up..
whenever i got ur text or phone called i will be wearing off that happy face..
but at times u disappointed me with ur u-know-what.. i know i dont have to mention..
cos i dont think i should tell everybody about that..
at times i dont understand u.. u always make me wondering and make me feel bad at times..
i think we are drifting apart..

i have enough i want to be happy girl.
i'm off.. i need to study..

<3

051109

2009-11-04T23:12:00.003+08:00

heyy humans,
its been awhile seen i last update my dusty blog.. was busy preparing myself for the BIG O's.
yea so much of preparing...
due to the o level ive been sleeping late and wake up super early just to studystudystudy..
so this is the timetable for my O's that i had followed for the passed few days and weeks..
if the paper is in the morning : slept at 2am wake up at around 5am to continue study before getting ready to school.
if the paper is in the afternoon : slept at 2am wake up at around 7am and studyy..
weekends : slept at 4am wake up at 8am..
yea and now ive got eye bags and dark circle !! UGLYYY!
but did this for the sake of O's.. hope it is worth it..
so my next paper which is science paper will be in 6days time and O's is officially over..
but i dont know why, i dont have a good feeling about this. i mean ive got a premonition that i will not get a good result.
i can't convince myself that ive gave my best shot and have the confidence in what i am doing.
tsk.. i know that i must not think of such stuff but i just couldnt get it out of my head..

anyway all the paper was quite difficult and some was okayy..
i hope i can get the result that i am aiming for..
okay ENOUGH about studying..
i cant wait for O's to be officially over because i cant wait for shopping,outingouting&more outing..
some of my friends have plan for a trip to sentosa and all.. OMG !!
ohhyaa did i tell u that i am attending prom?!
so yaa kinda excited..
but now still have to focus on my mcq which i dont know if i could retain myself from using the laptop, going out and stuff..
but i will try my very best to concentrate.. hehe..
nothing much to update..
will update soon..

p/s my girlfriends is so hilarious today..
;D

161009

2009-10-16T20:52:00.004+08:00

hi humans,
today was funfunfunfun!!!! went to school today just for the sake of PE LESSON!
YES I LOVE PE! MY CLASS LOVE PE ! this is the only time that we are able to be ourselves and release the stress that we are having after a long tedious and hectic week of studyingg..
eventho only around 2/3 of the class came, but still we enjoy it to the fullest..
had our PE lesson at the new indoor sport hall..
ohhmyy damn it is so cool. serious !
at the first part, the girls play captain ball while the guys as usual basketball but then they joined us not long after..
even the PE teacher joined us for the game.. we really have alot of fun..
we sweat alot..
went back to class and suppose to continue with SS lesson but we have sharing session with our SS teacher.
she really motivate us.. then continue with SBQ. but i aint listening in class.. me and my friends was busy writting notes for our teacher..
for once, we went to recess as a whole class. even the boys sit at the same table as us.. OMG!
when GIRLS MIXED WITH BOYS = very noisy and chaotic !!!!
after recess supposed to have english lesson but we told the teacher to let us off since there is not much student..
and i dont know how come she agree with that arrangement.. hahh..
so instead of doing english we cam-whore while the teacher busy teacher some hardworking soul. hahha
we cam-whore like mad and now my phone and my friends phone is flooded with our photos..
hahhaa...

yeayea.. thats about it..
the photos are all in FB..
u can check it out.. even the unglam pic is up.. hahhaa

so yea thats about it..
gonna start mugging later untill midnight..
hopefully can tahan..

anyway,
HAPPY DEEPAVALI !!

151009

2009-10-15T17:55:00.006+08:00

heyy humans,
yea its been awhile since i last touch this dusty blog of mine..
was busy with O's and yaa.. u know i know.
hmm so nothing much i could say.. life goes on..
anyway yesterday was my graduation ceremony..
at first i was excited and i cnt believe that after so many year i have finally graduated but yet yesterday, the day that i have been waiting for was different..
yes graduate means that we have finally completed one chapter of our life but its also the beginning of our new life ahead.
on hearing the speech by two of my classmate on the stage and the slide presentation..
i burst out crying.. i have got no idea why.. its just unexpected.. i didnt know that i will ended up being sad..
hmm maybe we have a lot of memories and fun together as class..
i cannot deny that my class have a lot of conflict and misunderstanding but yet we are able to resolve it and be united once again...
the fun we had together will remain as memories forever..

here are some picture that we took yesterday..
i will upload more in FB..
O's are drawing nearer..
part of me want it to be over and done with but another part of it is very anxious and nervous and dont fell like take it..
-.-"

anyway,
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY FATIN!
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY NABILLA!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SIDAH!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY NOEL!

yea thats about it...

120909

2009-09-12T01:12:00.004+08:00

trapped inside my own head
remembering every word u said
i am screaming and fighting trying to find a way out
curled up in my own mind drowing in doubt
wrapping inside my thoughts overlooking the days
trying to find my out of this solitary maze
indulge in judgement of the outside place
looking in a broken mirror at my shattered face
waking up from the nightmare from which i live
caged like an animal nothing seems to give ...

for once,it is not all about u..
i wish i did not met u 4 to 5 years ago..
we used to read each other like a book
but times have changed as they tend to do
and u have turned my life into a zoo
tears fall hard,
my head starts to pound
and all at once my hearts hits the ground
i dont know what i did to make u
think that i cant do anything right
for lately it seems our hearts and our dreams are as different as black and white.
i aint strong but i am trying hard to accept everything and be strong to go thru every single things that coming my ways.

i am disappointed with u for making me going thru this at this critical times when my O's are drawing nearer and nearer every single day.
i am disappointed with myself for not being strong enough to go thru such things and not able to focus because of this things.
tsk...
maybe everything happen for a reason.. i believe in fate i believe in karma..

:(

090909

2009-09-09T19:29:00.001+08:00

hi human..
heyyheyy look at today's date.. its 090909.. cool huhh..
wandering who birthday fall on this date.. so lucky nyehhh..
anw anw i am talking crap.. duhh..

so, 'holidays' have been a great one with revision and extra lesson.. i'm lovin it..
life have been great with no disturbance from any nonsensical loser nor childish people..
no offence people.. i am living my life to the fullest..
the only thing i am thinking now is only the BIG BIG BIG O's !!!
now i am not interested in what people gonna say or do. i mean the nasty thing as usually..
because i felt in this world there is a lot of jealousy, hatred and insecurity in this world..
and thus rumours and gossip will arise..
so after knocking some sense in my brain i dont think i need to entertain such nonsense stuff..
rightright?!
absolutely :)
but i will always treasure my friends:)

anw will u believe me if i say i have got 6 hours of maths lesson today?!
had extra class today.. amaths lesson is from 8-12pm which is equal to 4h and emaths is from 1-3 which is equal to 2h..
ohhmyyy but im still fine and i haven gone crazy:)
hehe...
hmm i just break my fast.. break fast with my brother at home since my parents when out SHOPPING..
they went somewhere and then going to geylang ... they asked me to tag along but i dont want because i am not in favour in going to geylang..
firstly a lot of people, secondly very warm (look at the weather) , thirdly i just dont like..
so after having a hard time deciding we came out with an idea of having a western food for dinner..
so being a lil sister i wanna be good so i went down to the nearby coffee shop to buy fooddddd...
hohoho :)

ohhyaa i went to collect my phone last two days.. and now my phone is perfectly fine. hahha
but unfortunately i lost 1 or 2 contact number because when i am using the spare phone i didnt save that number in my SIM card so now its gone.. gone for good maybe.. DANG!
nothing much to blog about..
only that i missed my cousin..gahhh!!!!!
got extra lesson tomorrow and friday.. boohoo!!

and i just realize that i am only left with around 48 more days to O's..
ohh gosh 48 more days?! i still have a lot of revision to be done !!!
save me !!

i'm off then.
:)

040909

2009-09-04T22:16:00.000+08:00

hi humans,
look its already september !!! time passes in a blink of an eyes.. ohh boyy..
anw i am happy to announce that prelim is finally OVER !!!
today is the last paper which is the science MCQ.. hohoho..
received some of the paper today which is emaths and amaths..
boohoo i am delighted but at the same time not satisfied with what i have got..
i passed both paper.. but the grades is not what i have target for..-.-"
although i have improve a bit from the MYE and didnt really study that much for this paper but i really felt that i should had done better.. ohh boyyyy.
but whats done is done and moved on..
the most important now is to prepare for the BIG 'O' level....
with hardwork i believed my classmate and i will make it..:)

say hi to to the september holidays and say goodbye to term 3...
but as usual the graduating classes will not have our holidays..
our holidays are always burned up with extra classes..
but mind u, i dont mind sacrifice my holidays for the sake of the O level..
because i know that i gonna have a longer holidays after the O level..
not forgetting that with good result i will be able to have a good life ahead.. hohoho.

anw, when to town in the afternoon just now.. just to send my sick phone for service.
but no worries i have got extra phone to spare so feel free to text me :)
went with u-dont-have-to-know-who.. had fun just now..
walk around at the new shopping mall which is the orchard ion..
quite nice.. i love the toilet..ohh boyy.. okay weirdo.. hahha
train down to amk hub and broke my fast there..
bus-ed down to cwp to killed sometimes.. but really we regret taking the bus because the journey is not smooth..
yadaaydadaa reach home at around 10pm..

i am taking 1 or 2 days off and i gonna start with the revision..
i already make the promise to myself that i gonna put in extra hardwork for the O's..
and i will make sure it is not empty promises..
hehehe...
i wanna go SHOPPING!! I NEED NEW CLOTHES!!
but.. yes there is always a BUT..
i need to control myself and study instead of going out...
fasting months have been going greats.. i just loves fasting month..idk why..
maybe because i am able to save money.. duhh..
i've got my daily and monthly allowance from my parents..
okay okayy enough..

update soon humans...
happy holidays and good luck to those whose taking the N level..
:)

280809

2009-08-28T22:20:00.000+08:00

hi humans,
finally finally finally D&T practical is over. so say good bye to journal, staying up late to do research and updating it, keep drawing and drawing all the parts, stay back after school until 7 just for D&T.
everything is over now..phew..i feel very relieved.
today was the submission date for O level D&T journal.. everybody need to hand in their journal, presentation board and their product...
design studio was very hectic just now.. with people rushing their works, litter everywhere, table very messy with paper, losing things like scissor, ruler, glue yadayada.. running up to the lab and going down to the workshop to get things..
but now seriously i miss the scene we have just now.. okay weird.. nvm.
so just now not able to breakfast at home but instead we all breakfast in design studios.. one of my classmate went down and buy for all the malays student drinks so at least we are able to break our fast with water..
amirul damn funny.. his the one who listen to the radio to know when can we break fast. he make a loud noise went the time is right for us to breakfast..
anyway did i mention that mr tan is back ! the story goes like this..
i was busy cutting up stuff for my presentation board when suddenly i heard a voice.
mr tan: so, have u completed ur D&T?
at that point of time i was really engrossed in doing my work so i felt a little irritated. so i look up..
me: ( in a shock face) OMG! u mr tan right ?!! ( feeling excited) where have u been?? why must u come back now??
i throw him a lot of question till he cant answer me.. hahhhaa
he look through my journal and presentation board and he say he was impressed.. hahhaa
okay enough.. but i am very excited.. he was my last year D&T teacher and he help me alot..
i learn a lot of stuff from him. but unfortunately he have to go to australia to further his studies..
okayokay enough about D&T.
but first i need to thanks some of my friends for helping me through out the 8 months when i have difficulty doing some of the parts. a lot of people have help but this people really help me a lot..
they are my teachers of course, diana, the malay girls, jacq and rairul..
thanks for helping me..:)

anyway yesterday i turn 1 year older..
i was very happy..
thanks for all the birthday wishes thru sms, phone, verbally, singing, shouting yadayada..
thanks for the birthday presentssssss!!!! i love them all...

prelim is still not over yet.. i have to buck up.. really..
i really need to study physic so that it will help me pull up my comb. humans mark!!!
just now was disaster have 2 paper which is chemistry and SS.. but lucky SS was do able..
as usual SEQ i vomit out things that i have memorize.. but still i did not have enough time to complete the SBQ! -.-
chemistry was damn difficult.. i cant deny that..
nvm i will work hard in physic to help me..:)

what a long post i have..
update soon then..
have a pleasant weekends but as for me, my weekends are always burn..

220809

2009-08-22T18:03:00.000+08:00

hi humans,
as usual blogger is being sucha loser.. i cannot upload photos. -.-"
i am feeling lethargy. had 2 hour of chemistry and 2 hour of amaths just now..
then went over to jueqi house to pass her amaths worksheet since she is not able to attend the lesson..
she is down with flu.. GET WELL SOON !
rushed back home because i have tuition.. what a day.. have to rush here and there.
anw prelim just started.. english and emaths is over..
but i have screwed up emaths paper 2. super sad.. ive got not enough time to complete..
OMG..
so because of that i gonna really really study for the upcoming amaths paper..
i wouldnt want to screw it up..tsk
English O level oral is on monday.. nervous as usual but i have oral practice with my english enrichment teacher yesterday..
she say i must read with more expressiveness, picture convo i was okay because i have got all the point there only that i need to elaborate and finally the convo she say i am spontaneous but still can work it out more..
so i gonna work on that..
yesterday had a hectic afternoon..
the D&T students as usual have to rushed on our D&T journal..
we have to hand in all yesterday although the dateline for O level is on 28 aug..
if we didnt hand in the teacher WILL NOT check our journal..
yea so we have to rushed to complete everything..
tsk tiring day...

MT O level result is out on wednesday..
my result was unbelievable.. i am satisfied..
thank god for that.(:
so now i am left with 6 more subject to focus on..
O level in 2 more months and i hope i would be able to give my best shots as i wouldnt want to disappoint anybody..

p/s
maybe to u i have change but to me i am still my old self. but if really i have change maybe i have just found my real self..
i wouldnt want to think about the past.. lets bygone be bygone.. i just want to start afresh and not think about the past.
now the only think i have on my mind is the O level.. to study hard and produce good result..
i wouldnt want to regret later on..

(:

160809

2009-08-16T17:25:00.000+08:00

hi human,
its been awhile.. ignore my previous post because i have recover and i gonna move on..
i am not going to be like them who have no life..
all thanks to some of my friends who have knock some sense in me and make me move on..
thanks yo.. after doing some soul-searching i realized that all this thing are not worth my time..
so why must i kept thinking about it..
for once, i did not change and i am still the old fazlin u have once know.. but if u think i have change i dont think it is ur business..
i can only say this please keep ur mouth shut and keep all ur comment to urself. u dont have to talk nasty thing about me or other when u dont know me at all. stop all the nonsensical comment that u have.
i not gonna take revenge on what u have done to me because i am not as childish and a loser like u..

ohyyaaa, i not gonna think about that relationship again.. i will just go with the flow..
prelim and O's are around the corner and i have alot more important things to be worried about..
prelim is just next week..OMG i dont want my prelim to be screwed up like my mid-year..
i gonna study as what i have promised my parents and friends..(:
yesterday was fun.. when for amaths and dnt lesson.. when home with the malay girls.. and i realized i have not been hanging out with them for quite sometimes..i am sorry.
we laugh alot.. they seriously have a lot of lame things to do and talk about.
and they say this to me " i haven seen u laughing like this for quite sometimes".
i cant deny that.. i laugh a lot until my tears drops all thanks to them..

yesterday i was supposed to follow the guys to celebrate rairul's and raja birthday but i didnt manage to go.. i am sorry..
i will accept the punishment..hehe! but i was unlucky because i bump into them at cwp yesterday after they celebrated their birthday.. they give me that face and asked me to follow them after that.. i felt guilty so i follow them and thanks to them i reach home at midnight.-.-" but i enjoy myself(:

So,
Happy belated birthday Taufiq, Rairul and Raja !!
study hard for prelim and O's !!

i'm off...
(:
blogger is being sucha loser i cant upload pictures-.-

060809

2009-08-06T20:42:00.002+08:00

sometimes in life things that we least expected will always happen.
there's nothing much we could do about this. the more we try to avoid the more the thing will hurt u.
it hurt u so much and too deep till u do not know what to do and lost in direction.
this is life..
many things can happen in a blink of an eyes.
u are burden with so much things in ur mind and still the new problem will arose and add to it..
it is just like adding salt to your wound.
i dont know what is happening to me and around me..
i am tired. tired of everything and i feel like giving myself away so i would able to avoid all the problems.
but i know that by running away we re not solving any of our problems.
so whats the point of it..
tsk.

i am stress with studies and people around me..
why cant they understand me and understand what i am going thru now?
why must it always be me who need to understand them..
i cant deny that i have my own flaws too.. i always do mistake and trying hard to learn from it.
when others do mistake, yes its hard for us to forgive and forget but i just feels that everybody need a second chance.
its not that they have committed a big mistake.
but instead of forgiving, people will tend to talk about it, make rumours about it and making them look bad.
why cant they think about other people feeling.. and why cant they look at the mirror and reflect what they have done..
its not easy to please people especially if he/she is the type who always want people to please them.

i am tired of everythings..
this is what one of my friend told me.. why must u try hard to save the relationship when the other partner dont give a shit about ur feeling..
after reflecting i think its true.
arghh !!!
i should just focus on my studies..
prelim in less then 13 days times and O level is in 2 mths time..
i better do something useful..

btw, HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY SYLVIA!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUMMY!:D

260709

2009-07-26T22:11:00.002+08:00

Never have i thought this gonna happen.
I am feeling so freaking down.
I just hate myself for being stupid and i hate u.
I did not know this thing gonna be like this.
tsk.

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120709

2009-07-12T16:54:00.002+08:00

hi human,
i've a hectic week. and i am serious very serious..
school,extra classes,D&T,tuition,homework and revision is really killing me..
i am having battle with time.
mt oral is tomorrow.. i really hope i can do it well.. i am nervous!
nothing much to update on except that the fact that yesterday i was asked by my brother to play monopoly with him
its been a while since we touch that game.. i thought he was being random i laugh my head off..
yea we play that game for freaking 3 hour-ish.
he sucha loser cos he play cheat..
screw him for that but i have alot of fun..
and playing monopoly is the best medicine to realize your stress..
HAHA!

u say u never come back
but here u are again.
i cant convince myself that i love u
i try to hold on but its hurt so much
i try to forget but not enough
the true really hurts me
i'm lost in direction.

070709

2009-07-07T19:18:00.002+08:00

hi human,
okay i feel like updating but will be a quick and simple one..hehh
yesterday was awesome funfunfun!!!!
gym and badminton with iffa was a blast one..
AWESOME! and we walked ALOT yesterday!
i swear..talkjokecam-whored was fun.. we will never run out of topic because there is ALWAYS something we gonna talk and comment about..hahh..
half way meet GF. i have awesome day and i meet new awesome friends..
i make friends with 5 people in one freaking day..Oooo
yadayada and yea we call it a day..

today school was okay. but what a day because inside the class we kept yawning and yawning..
everybody look tired and sleepy but yet we endure till 5.45 and yea end of school.
emaths mock was a killer and i screw-up..
ohhmyy i cannot afford to failed my emaths and i will never..
tomorrow having amaths mock.. god be with me..
and ohh please i wouldnt wanna put myself in that danger spot anymore..
i gonna study tonight! really i swear!
i gonna have a hectic week. i have ALOT of test coming up.
tmr- amaths mock
thurs-phy and chem, amaths differentiation test
fri-emaths trigo, ss
Oohhh look at that i gonna die.. SSSSSSOOOOOOOOooooooooonnnnnnn!!!!
ohh and i am excited because tuition is postpone to tomorrow..Gahhh

okayokay enough.. ohhyea somebody asked me to blog about him/her.
i will blog about u soon okay..
probably this weekend.. sound good? yea good.
i'm off then
:D

7 more week to prelim!-.-"

060709

2009-07-06T00:45:00.003+08:00

hi human,
sorry about the last entries..
anyway i am feeling very hyper and happy today..i not too sure why..
okay look at the time now its 12-ish am but i am still not in bed..
i just cant go to sleep yet. maybe i am still full of energy..
okayy its that a good or a bad thing?!

anyway just now.. eh wait i mean yesterday 5july went out with GF..
hehh yes with GF.. went studying with her at novena..
okayy go study untill that far huhh..
but actually not really study its more on catching up since we haven been meeting for 56837years..
i oso give her, her belated belated belated belated birthday present which i make on my own..
the stuff i make for her look a bit retarded but i know she like it..
HEHH! and i know she loves me! DANG! :D
yadayada.. we talked we eat we cam-whored we eat i went home..
i swear went i go out with her i confirm will eat alot..
because she dont like me to go on diet.. she say not healthy..
FATFATFAT! but its a good thing to go out with her because i will have no chance to skip my meal..
i even have my supper:D
shant eat tomorrow.:X
(she gonna kill me if she see this)

today weather is very cooling.. rain the whole day..
i love raining day and i was lucky because i brought my hoodie along if not i gonna freeze..LOL
currently was online-ing with some people..
but the most annoying one is izzat..
cos we kept nudging each other and asking each other to sleep because its late..
hahh.. weirdo!..
but i have a good reason in asking him to sleep because he got school tomorrow.
sad case!
lucky i am still in secondary school..
secondary school=youth=no school=no lesson=no need wake up early..

actually i wanted to do my SS SBQ but i am hooked to my lappy..
because i will not have the time to do this or even touch my lappy during the weekend..
okay i sounded like a deprive girl..
tsk..

okay i got nothing to blog..
i'm off.
HAPPY YOUTH'S DAY people!

ohh and i am excited because i've got date with Iffa Awesome in 12 hours time :D

030709

2009-07-03T20:56:00.003+08:00

LOSER!LIAR!
seriously i'm sick of all this..please get a life mann.. u are not a kids anymore to behave this way..
wake up, wake up from that world of yours and face the reality..
i seriously have enough and i want no more!
tsk..

hi humans,
okay first thing first, i am sorry if i begin my entries with that stuff above.. i know it sound bad and look kinda stupid but i wouldnt want to bottle it up anymore..
i have a million zillion thing to think about and to stress about and so i dont wanna this stuff to be one of it..
cos i find it so annoying and very stupid.. and dont want another burden can... save it!
maybe u all wont understand but nevermind its better to keep it in the dark and only certain people know about it..

okay lets begin with proper blogging.. hahh..
june holidays is so over! so wake up people.. but frankly speaking i am in no mood to study..DANG!
i am still having that-holiday-mood even though i didnt have the proper holiday..
but heyy look im fine and i am still enjoying my life..
even though life is super sad at times like NOW! but i think we should enjoy it to the fullest regardless what problem we are facing now..
its the 3rd day of the new month and its the end of the week.. time flies indeed..
i hate the new term and i hate going to school..
know what my timetables is freaking tight with school,remedial which only end at around 6pm and not forgetting tuition in the evening.. besides that homework its a MUST to have everyday, class test and mock test is a MUST to give every week.
look how tiring and pathetic it is..
and what a tedious week i have to go through.tsk..
yes its true that i am sitting for my BIG O'S this year and the school are helping and pushing us so we will do well.
but still, i think school's should keep in mind that students arent a robot..
we got our capacity and limits in doing somethings..
okay okay cool..
the H1N1 case are increasing even though a lot of things have taken place.. nothing surprising about that..
school's have taken some measure to help this cases from spreading..
but but at times i find it very troublesome..
because i have to walk 1 big round to enter the front gate every morning just because the back gate are closed.
and before entering they will asked a lot of question.. i feel like we have to go through airport security just to enter the school.
tsk. how stupid.

anyway enough about school.
parents are back a week ago.. they bought for me some stuff:D:D
last thursday, sentosa with clique is funfunfun!
suntanned,volleyball,playing water is awesome!
and not forgetting cam-whored..[ps i've got 125 photos to upload on the sentosa trip]
they keep asking me to upload but its too much la..i will find some free day and wil upload it all..
okay guys.. dont be angry!:D
ohhyaaa due to the sentosa trip i have sunburn and among them i am the worst..
this past few days my face look super weird with the different colour tone.. and not forgetting my skin is peeling off..
but now i think it look better..
okay enough i think i should stop here..

before that,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DIANA!!
oldoldold!
may your best wishes come true and study hard for your BIG O'S!
you have been a great friends to me.. and this year gonna be our last year in the same school.
i really hope we can continue being friends even though we gonna be far apart..
:D

240609

2009-06-24T21:59:00.004+08:00

hi human..
justin told me that ive been updating my blog quite frequently this days.. and i realized that too..
so its that a good or a bad thing?! hahh.
anyway let me track back a little..
tuesday amaths test is a killer..
it was horrible terrible disaster !
hahh when i look at the first question i was B-L-A-N-K ! especially the paper 2 was like damn difficult..
or maybe i did not study enough..
but but i manage to do, left out some question in paper2 because i dont even know how to start..
yeaa that bad..
maybe i should considered having an amaths intensive section for myself on MY OWN..
hahh how about that?! sound nice,isnt it?
okayy crap.. but maybe i really should consider that. it may work.
and i know my teacher and my tuition teacher and even my parents will encourage me to do that..hahh
okay enough..
on tuesday i skip D&T again..yea was lazy beside my teacher is not there..
so if i go i will just waste my time there..and i need my teacher to help me with those stuff..
went out with jueqi at night..
yea the picture will tell u everything.. but i didnt upload much here.. i will upload them in facebook:D

today, skip D&T..yadayada..
my form teacher called me just now asking me to log in to chr website to print up some stuff which need to hand in on monday..
then she asked me how's my study and all.. omg i am so touched seeing that how concern she is..
talked to her on the phone for about 15mins or so..
ohh she even asked me to be thick skin for this 4 months..
meaning asking me to asked teacher for help and all..
i though i am already thick skin to them?
but maybe not thick skin enough!
ohh i am excited about tmr !
ohh and i manage to complete my chemistry worksheet and social studies structure question..
hoho !:D
so i left with 2 emaths paper and amaths tys..
i think..

mummy and daddy coming back this saturday..
i am excited after not seeing them for freaking 2 weeks and after not hearing their nagging and lecture..
hahh weirdo!
but while there are away i seriously learn something from it..
firstly, i manage to do a little bit of house work which i dont think i did when they i around..
i learn that housework is not difficult to do it just need a little effort..
secondly, i know how to wash clothes using the washing machine and use the dryer to dry them.
okay okay sound ridiculous but seriously now then i know.. haha
thirdy, i not gonna say it...

yesterday talk to this old friend of mine..
his in poly already.. updating each other about us..yea.
and i am glad his already so over it and found new girl..haha
i mean i am sorry for rejecting u and all but i think its better for us to be friends..
yea see like now..

okayy i'm off then..
:D

p/s mike u better watch out.haha:D

220609

2009-06-22T17:45:00.004+08:00

hi humans,
i feel like blogging today.. yea weird feeling indeed.
wake at 7am this morning... i thought i was late but lucky i am not..
headed to school.. had emaths mock test, today paper1 and paper2..
follow up by D&T remedial after that..
but i was lucky that the teacher allow us to go home a little bit earlier due to tomorrow amaths mock test..
i was damn happy la..
i have not revise for tomorrow amaths paper. OMG !
i think i gonna flung but i will try my very best to revise today so as not to flung the test tomorrow..
so tomorrow its the same routine amaths mock test and follow up by D&T remedial..
but tomorrow i dont think can go home early so will be doing D&T till 5pm tomorrow.
DARN!
i noticed that i am only left with 7 more week to complete up my D&T before the date line..
OMG! seriously a wake up call mann.. i haven even completed my journal.. my product is not even half-way done and worst still, my presentation board nothing is up yet..
OMGOMGOMG!!
i am messing with my own life.. real shit..
seriously i dont know what i am driving through right now. i am having battle with time..
i have alot of things to do but yet so little time..my time management is really bad..
maybe i should do my own time table for that..
screw me for that...
i always say i want to do but i ended up doing something else..
omg O level is in 4 months time but yet i am behaving as in i have got no exam..
ahh shut up.. maybe i should stop whining.
okayokay i'm off to study for amaths test tomorrow..
yea last minutes study, it bring no good but at times it does help u in someway or another..

;D

20.06.09

2009-06-20T15:17:00.002+08:00

hi humans,
its saturday..suppose to have tuition at 12 just now but last minutes it was postponed to tomorrow..
yea not again.. but nevermind i am fine with that..
i realised that time passed in a blink of an eyes when we are having fun..
i haven been doing my homework nor start revising for the upcoming exam..
WAKE UP CALL !
butbut i glad that i manage to complete my english comprehension and composition yesterday..
HOHOHO!
school holiday is ending soon.. next week i will be having mock exam..
yea i know its like mock exam during the holiday?! wth right..
having emaths and amaths mock test next monday and tuesday follow by D&T lesson AGAIN..
the only thing i could say now is B-O-R-I-N-G!
but but i dont want to flung those mock test so i gonna start studying for that exam SOON!
i mean now yea today ! no more dragging it anymore...

okayy track back..
thursday study day with the usual clique jueqi,jacq and rairul..
manage to do some work but at last we ended up cam-whore-ing..
went back home at ard 11..
i have fun tho..
yesterday which is friday went to tuition.. meet jueqi at cwp for lunch(which is ard 4plus)..
then she came over to my house did some work and watch dvd..
she went back at ard 10 plus..
thanks for accompany me uhh..
yeaa thats about it la..

anyway father's day is tomorrow..
HAPPY ADVANCE FATHER'S DAY DADDY!
although u are in oversea now and will only be back next saturday but still i will always remember u..
and and i will text u tonight at 12am sharp to wish u happy father's day..
even though at times our thoughts and opinion are not the same and because of that we had some conflicts over it but i know what u did and do are all for my own good..
i know at times i do go against u.. i never listen to u.. to me what i do is always right but u never give up on me.
u always show me what my mistake are..u make me know the world..
u never let me down even if inside of u are suffering.. u tried to make everything look good and nice to me..
even if i make a serious mistake u are there to make me learn from it and u are always there to forgives me and asked me to start over again..
you always encourage me and u always by my sides to support my decision..
i love u daddy.. u re the best daddy i will ever had..
;D

hmm okayy now i miss my granddaddy..
its been months and days since u are away.. u just dont know how much i miss u..
i miss ur laughter, i miss ur jokes, i miss ur story-telling section.. i miss u..
everytime i went back there i will always sense ur presence there.
i know even though u are now so far, so far away but u will always keep watch on us and always be by our sides..
happy father's day granddaddy !
LOVES!

i'm off !
;D

180609

2009-06-18T15:27:00.003+08:00

hi humans..
today its the 18.. ohhmyy.. nevermind u dont have to know..
anyway i have been feeling lazy this past few days to update my blog..
yea so that's the reason why my blog is left unattended..
intensive D&T last 2 week had been okayy.. i have fun doing my work there with my classmates and friends..
especially the boys keep cracking jokes..
even though at times i feel tense up when doing my journal like cannot get the drawing right and the dimension is wrong but i still can get over it with them around..
i swear i gonna miss the fun after my O's and all..
ohhyaa last friday is consider our last day of intensive for that week before it resume again next week..
so mr toh our D&T teacher order 40 box of pizza and 3 box of chicken wings for the D&T students..
ohhmyy we were super duper shock can.. thanks mr toh !!
i have the picture but i am kinda lazy to upload..maybe will upload soon okayss..
ohh and got this 1 time.. me, darren and eugene was sitting together..
at that point of times i am super duper lazy,tired plus sleepy so i started to draw on darren's model that he had made..
a few minutes later
darren: f*** whats the smell?
me: (i cnt smell anything except the air-con) what smell?
darren: waluii
a few seconds later,
me: (throw my pencil) eew.
me and darren quickly run away and go to another side while eugene walk slowly..
darren: sia uh who farted sia? like never go toilet for 2 weeks..
me: yala want to fart give signal first can..
darren: eh u know ur reaction super duper slow u can still ask me what..
me:HAHA! Diffusion what .. travel to u than me..
darren: crazy..
damn funny la.. but the weird thing is eugene can still walk slowly..OMG!

anyway justin is away.. he have school field trips.. B-O-R-I-N-G !
he went indonesia for 5 days.. okayy i am so OVER IT !
parents are also away for freaking 2 weeks !!
now u know how bored i am..
but i am lucky i still have a lot of friends out there..
just that why must they go oversea when they know that this is the only week i got nothing.
i mean no school=no lesson.
DANG !
from last sunday 14 june i have been going out non-stop..
-tennis
-shopping
-movies
-bowling
-movies
- yadayada
(cannot remember)
and i am broke

supposed to have tuition today at 1pm but was postpone to tomorrow..
i hate it can...
i have lots of homework to be done..
too many till i dont know which one to start with..
tsk!

okay nothing muchh..
till my next update..
and i got a lot of photo that need to be uploaded..
if i am free and not lazy i will upload yaw..
the guys gonna kill me if they saw this because they been asking me to upload..hehhe

i'm off humans !

080609

2009-06-08T18:37:00.003+08:00

hi humans..
now right now i am feeling very tired and exhausted..
just came back from school.. from 8am to 5pm..
tsk..
went to d&t just now and guess what me and diana waited for out material to be cut from around 11 to 3 plus..
we didnt asked much just 1 part of material to be cut so we can do some work..
but it take longer then it expected to be..
i kept running up and down the stair case just to make sure i did my dimension correctly and to asked question..
i swear i can lose weight if this continue..
sigh.
feel like giving up but i wouldnt want to be a fiasco..
i will still work on it till it is over..
i just want to get this O level exam over and done with..
just 4 more month to go and within that month i really need to put my very best ignore every setback i had..
just concentrate on it.. no more no less..

i felt empty..
i wanna get out of this secondary school as fast as possible..
some may say that secondary school life leave us a lot of memories..
all the good and the bad want..
yes i must agree with that...
but at times i just hate it when everything does not go according to what i have plan..
i have to go thru so much yea so much..
keep enduring and persevere no matter how hard it is even though at times it already meet the limit that one had..
i just cannot take it...
i know what we plan might not come out what it might be cause what we plan god will decide for us..(something like this)
but at times it just so unfair..
wait! since when life is fair..
living in this cruel world nothing is fair and nothing is free..
u must work for it, work very hard in order to achieve what we want and what we deserve..
and not all things will end up in a happy ending because we are not living in a fairy tale world that after a hard life it will end off happily ever after. its not..
its far far different from that..
we are living in reality ,except everything that comes around.. no things can make us turn back to make it right after we have suffer the great lose and regret it..
the only thing we could do is learn from it and never make the same mistake ever again.
sigh..
okayy okayy i better stop ranting..
anyway thanks for listening.. finally i could pour out everything after a long time bottled it up..

i feel like going running to make myself feel better and sweat all those things out..
but yet i dont think its possible cause now its already 7pm..
i only had 1 hour left before my tuition start..
so better not..
and make sure that tuition teacher of mine come on time before i ...(joking)
i better get going..
i need to bathe after a long day in school..

:D

070609

2009-06-07T19:22:00.002+08:00

hello humans..
i feel good.. went jogging alone just now..
and just come back.. thought of bathing but i am sweating..
GAHH !
run at the jetty not that crowded but a lot of bangladeshi people.
no comment..hahha
supposed to have tuition later at 8pm but for some reason its postpone to tomorrow..
how good.. but wait not good i still have to rushed back home and get ready for tuition after my class..
DANG !
lesson tomorrow from 8am to 5pm..
ohhmyygodd..

parent leaving next week to u-no-need-to-know-where..
sad case.. and that week i am super free with no classes..
tsk but no to worry i gonna spend my time wisely doing my homework and going out..
i guess..

anyway..i'm off to bathe...
hohoho..

;D

060609

2009-06-06T14:23:00.002+08:00

yo humans!
time passed super duper fast.. the first week of june holiday is almost over..
i cannot feel the i-am-in-the-holiday -mood kind of things.
everything just went so fast..
1 june had my MT O level.. dont asked me if it is difficult not..
because i will answer u this.. "since when MT paper is easy"
but but i manage to finish the paper and i already put in the best..
i hope i can passed with GOOD GRADES..
after MT O level went to seoul garden with clique..
we ate for about 4hour and i swear my stomach can burst in no time..
hahha.
reach home take a quick bathe headed to city hall meet the 2 girlfrens..
sorry for making u guys wait.. TEEHEE!
had fun with both of them..

the next day as usual continue with holiday extra lesson..
had both amaths and emaths lesson and continue with D&T intensive..
DANG ! D&T is killing me.. but i still have fun because the guys keep cracking jokes and all..
did our D&T in the mac lab for my group while the other group in the design studio..
so not that crowded..
talked,sneak food in, listen to song, talked crap and do work is a routine.. hahha

butbut yesterday was the most hilarious.
its around 5pm our teacher went out to see i-dont-know- who..
so we all packed our stuff to go home.
so while waiting for the teacher to come back the guys damn funny..
they play the musical chair..
had 5 people but we only put 4 chairs so went the music stop we must see who do not have the sit..
their reaction damn funny la...
after class went to cwp to have dinner with them but me and jueqi too full to eat..
so we wanted to go home..
but they say that we bubble them..DANG!
so because of that we must go to RP to see them play soccer..
nonsense right ?!
reached home at ard 11 plus..

next week hopefully i can start working on my artefact.
i crack my brain the whole day yesterday just to get my dimension right..
DAMN!
so yea nothing much..

update soon..
:D

2009-05-31T19:12:00.002+08:00

yo humans !!!
hmm where do i start?!
okay so tomorrow is MT "O" !! all the best for those who taking it including me.(duhh-uh)
so my weekend nothing much... did some of my june holiday homework and did the malay practice paper..
yeaa hope i can do it well..:D
got piles of assignment need to be done..
and the bad thing is 1/4 of it need to be handed it during the june holiday itself..
they are 3 set of emaths paper, ss source-based question, i think thats about it..
ohhmyy god..DANG !!!
nevermind about that.. quite used to it ready..
besides i having emaths and amaths mock test during the june holiday..
i gonna study..(duhh) have to make it up for not doing well during mid-year..

so on last friday went to school with clique around 730pm to look at the planet.. it is called saturn..
if i spell correctly la... hehh.. spare me.. lol
nothing much la.. then after that hang out.. yada yada..
reach home around 11 plus..

june holiday i am packed with school which end at around 5pm..
meaning i have limited time to hang out..
tskk..
okayy wait for my next update..

;D

280509

2009-05-28T18:31:00.002+08:00

Yo!
Time passed in a blink of eyes. Been quite sometimes since i last touch my blog.
Was plain lazy to update beside MT O's is around the corner. Believe me or not its on next monday 1 June.
ohhmyy.. It better be good. Beside i wouldn't want to retake it as i really need to focus on my other 6 subject which is killing me as time goes by.. lol.
So MYE is so over. Get back all the result in 1 freaking day. And i swear my heart cannot take it..
Didnt do quite well as expected because i didnt start my revision earlier and lack of practice.
But seriously after getting back all the result i fell like giving up..
Butbut thanks to my family,friends for giving me encouragement.
They told me that this is only MYE and why must i lose hope...
There are still prelim that i can do better and finally the big O.
Hmm yea i am touched..
Okay enough of that.. I wouldnt want to dwell so much about it.

School is okayy.. Had 3h intensive MT since last thursday. And guess what?! Unlike last year, this year i have solid intensive MT.
I didnt sleep even once. I am proud of myself. Although its BOR-ING but i just need that intensive lesson to make it up for me.
I want to get it done and over with and no need think about it anymore.
The other lesson was quite okay eventho the weather was pretty bad..
But still i had lot of fun with my friends and my classmate..
And and the never-ending-joke my classmate had crake.
NAPFA test was okay. I manage to pass all the element..

And finally June holidays is like so near. I was happy but at the same time i felt reluctant because i will still have lesson on the 1st,2nd and the 4th week..
Beside emaths and amaths lesson i still have to attend 12 lesson of intensive D&T..
And the lesson start as earlier as 8am and will only end at 5pm..
DANG! Imagine that ..
But nevermind because its my last year and i need to do well.

Okay yess i know my blog is getting very wordy..
i should stop here RIGHT NOW !
Update soon people..
Ohh and all the best to those talking MT O level this coming monday..
:D

130509

2009-05-13T15:28:00.003+08:00

yo!
omgomgomg.i think i just screw up my geography paper just now.:X
geography paper was a disaster mann. i mean to me la i dont know about others.
when the teacher say 'u may begin' i flip to the first page and i was kinda shocked to see the question.
the question asked to sketch a rainforest that i have listed above.
i was like WTF how to sketch. and since diana sit beside me i kept looking at her.
and gosh she also gave me that i-dont-know-how-to-do kind of face.
but but i remain calm and think deep about the things that i study and revise on and finally i drew a tropical rainforest.
omg! terrible.! lucky its only MYE. i still have time to do revision.
maybe not that much but still not too late.
emaths paper 2 was a 2h30mins paper. and i thought 2h30mins its very long but unfortunately its not.
i left some question blank. DANG! the paper was QUITE difficult but QUITE manageable.
i took quite sometime to draw the curve graph using my FLEXIBLE ruler. it is TOO FLEXIBLE till i have to keep erasing and draw again and again. but i manage to do a nice curve.:D
3 more paper to go which is amaths paper2, science practical and last but not least is science MCQ.

and guess what tomorrow is amaths paper 2.omg i am nervous. and the paper better be good because paper 1 was very ...
but but but no worries i gonna practice and practice till i am confident with myself. -.-
anyway i cant wait for monday which is the last paper. but i dont think i can endure that long.
alot of temptation whenever u wanna study. u see. but but i just wanna get it done and over with.

okay enough!
anyway my weekend was a blast one.
one word can describe AWESOME!
met my cousin and all.
and u know when cousin meet cousin what do they do.
we camwhore and stuff. but i not gonna upload it now cos i am lazy besides i need more time to study..
okay maybe i should stop here. yes ! HERE!
and gosh look at my post very wordyyyyyyy..

STOP !!!
mug time. mug till drop..
okay fine STOP !!!!!!!

090509

2009-05-09T19:47:00.003+08:00

hello humans,
this week passed in a blink of an eyes.
exam have been a disaster one for me.
nothing can describe it.. if only i have done my revision earlier..
tsk.
6 more paper and 1 practical paper to sit for next week.
the paper better be good.or else..

anyway enough of exam.
life's is pretty good and school is pretty okay with exam going on..
tomorrow is mother's day..and guess what i still dont know what to get for my mum.
i really need help for this..
ohh and next monday no school. since today is vesak's day..
hahh i m contented.
holiday=have more time to rest=have more time to study..
hahh.
ohh and i have sudden urge to shop..DANG!
okay i have to control control and control till exam are over.hehh
i can do it!

ohh yea recently the news says that the H1N1 flu have improve from orange to yellow stage.
quite happy for that. because i am sick and tired having to take temperature twice a day in school.
really very sickening. and guess what even the teacher wore a mask and stand infront of the gate in the morning to check if we are physically okay..
i am speechless for that. hahh.

okay what else.. nothing much..
till i update again..
have to continue mugging till i drop.
-.-

i'm bored with life.
i'm bored with you.
i'm tired of pretending.

280409

2009-04-28T17:59:00.002+08:00

hello humans,
hehh its been quite sometimes since i last update.
as usual busy pretty with this and that.
but yet i still take time off from that busy schedule of mine just to blog somethings.
hahh. actually nola.i just wanted to release the stress in me.
i am nervous about tomorrow. its the first paper which is english.
and ohh you know how hard english can be at times. or maybe all the times.
but maybe not as sickening as mother tongue paper..
i really hope i could do the paper. but the most worrying part is the paper 1 because i got no idea what its coming up.
maybe it could be letter writing,report,speech etc.
so i guess, no i mean i am studying later.

hmm i dont know why but out of sudden this question came out of my mind.
which is better,over-preparing or under-preparing?
okayy okayy i know what a question to asked.
but i think there are basically two types of people in this world. the first one believes in taking charge and preparing for every kind of circumferences that will crop up to derail their plans.
the other type believes that merely making enough preparation will suffice and since nobody can really be sure of anything.
they will only handle any unexpected situations when they arise. thus this second group of people are under-preparing.
yeaa so which is better so better to be over-preparing.

basically i am talking rubbish in this post. like really..
okayy gonna continue mugging till i drop;D

last but not least
good luck to those whose having their MYE!
;D

180409

2009-04-18T23:14:00.003+08:00

hello humans,
his gone but the memories stays forever.
when the day i was told by my mum that his gone i thought it was just a nightmare.
but unfortunately it was true, so true that i cant do anything nether can i say anything.
i was speechless. i was shocked. very shocked. i felt lethargy. i did not know it will end up this way.
i burst into tears. it took me quite sometime to recover.
task. and now i am left with nothing.
but i am glad i got to see u and kiss u for the very last time.
i wish i was there to look after u and cheer u up.
but i am always busy with school,tuition and personal time.
REGRET!
but i learn my lesson i will treasure everybody around me everybody that i love.
task.
i love u atuk. but why must u leave so soon. it make me wander.
but i know everything that is alive now will be gone one day.
i should move on. but the memories will always be in me.

went to kenduri last few days at my nenek house. i can still sense his presence at there.
but i am glad i still have nenek and my other families members.
okayy enough about that.. maybe i should learn to be strong.
and thanks to my friends for cheering me up when i am down.

so next week i have alot of class test coming up.
mostly is emaths and amaths.
its really killing me..goshhhh
MYE is around the corner. left with 1 week to do all the necessary things.
omg i dont know if i can endure. fyi i haven officially start on my revision.
alot of assignment to complete. test to study. if only there are 48h in one day i will be the first person to celebrate.
hahhs.
tuition tomorrow ! argghh! it driving me nuts.

hmm u know what i have a sudden feeling to shop.hiazzz.
ohhyaa went to NPDP just now. it maybe the last year me and my friends attending it. idk.
it was okay but i must affirm the six sec 2 students for participating.
u did a good job.. really. yeaa.
okayy that all i gotta say.

last but not least,
i love u, atuk.
u will always be in my heart.

;D

110409

2009-04-11T01:34:00.002+08:00

Hello humans,
okay lets get started. haven been blogging. as usual pretty busy with this and that.
hectic life i have got.. same normal routine every single day. school,extra class,tuition,hw,revision,sleep.
yeaa no life AT ALL. what to do..
MYE is around the corner.. i am scared. haven officially start on my revision.
OMG ! what am i suppose to do now?!
Anyway, atuk was admitted to the hospital again.
visited him on thursday night. i cried when i saw his condition like.
i just cant stop the tears from dropping. haiz. the only think i could do now is to pray for him to get well soon.
*Get well soon atuk. although i know u cant read this but i would like u to know that i love u very much.
and i miss the time when u sing to us the oldies english song.
although i may not listen to them but when u sung it it just make me feel proud of u..

English prelim oral is next week.
i am nervous.hahha
alot of hw to be done this weekend.. seriously no life.
let me lists it down.
1. 2 sets of emaths paper
2. 1 set of amaths paper
3. 2004 O level chemistry paper
4. 1 set of malay paper
5. SS structure question
6. D&T ideation and development.

OMG ! it never end ..

okay nothing much to update.
will update soon.

:D

110409

2009-04-11T00:59:00.005+08:00

Hello human,ive been tagged by acha to do this quiz..

1. Full Name => Nur Fazlin Bte Mohamed Noor
2. Nicknames => Fazlin :)
3. Birth place => KKH
4. Hair color => Black&Brown
5. Natural hair style => Long
6. Eye Color => Black i think
7. Birthday => 27 August 1992
8. Favourite Country =>Paris
9. Favorite color => Red,white,black
10. One place you'd like to visit => Paris

TEN THINGS ABOUT YOUR LOVE LIFE

1. Have you ever been in love?
Hmm i guess so.

2. Do you believe in love at first sight?
Not really

3. Do you currently have a crush?
Yes yes

4. Have you ever been hurt emotionally?
hmm yes, but life have to move on.

5. Have you ever broken someone's heart?
i dont think so but if yes please tell me.hahh

6. Have you ever had your heart broken?
i guess

7. Have you ever liked someone but never told them?
yes yes

8. Are you afraid of commitment?
Not really

9. Who was the last person you hugged?
No idea

10. Who was the last person you said I love you to?
No idea

TEN THIS OR THAT.

1. Love or lust?
Love

2. Hard liquor or beer?
None .

3. Cats or dogs?
Cats

4. A few best friends or any regular friends?
Both?!

5. Creamy or Crunchy?
Both

6. Pencil or Pen?
Both

7. Wild night out or romantic night in?
Any one.

8. Money or Happiness?
hmm. practically money in theory happiness. okay idk.

9. Night or day?
Night

10. IM or phone?
Phone

TEN HAVE YOU EVER

1. Been caught sneaking out?
Yes

2. Seen a polar bear?
Yes

3. Done something you regret?
Yes always

4. Bungee jumped?
Yes. nice:)

5. Eaten food that fell on the floor?
hmm i dont think so.

6. Finished an entire jaw breaker?
What?!

7. Been caught naked?
Of course NO !

8. Wanted an ex bf/gf back?
No.

9. Cried because you lost a pet ?
I dont have any.

10. Wanted to disappear?
Always

TEN PREFERENCES IN A PARTNER

1. Smile or eyes?
Both

2. Light or dark hair?
Both

3. Hugs or kisses?
Both

4. Shorter or taller?
obviously taller.

5. Intelligence or attraction?
Both

6. Topman or Zara?
Both

7. Funny or serious?
Both

8. Older or Younger?
Depend

9. Outgoing or quiet?
Outgoing

10. Sweet or Bad ?
Depend.

TEN HAVE YOUS

1. Ever performed in front of a large crowd?
Yes (long time ago)

2. Ever talked on the phone for longer than an hour?
Duhhhhh.

3. Ever tried walking on your hands?
No.

4. Ever been to a rock concert?
No.

5. Ever been on a cheer leading team?
Yes.

6. Ever been on a dance team?
Yes.

7. Ever been on a sports team?
Yes.

8. Ever been in a drama play/production?
No.

9. Ever owned a BMW, Mercedes Benz, Escalade, Hummer or Bentley?
I wish.

10. Ever been in a rap video?
No.

TEN LASTS

1. Last phone call you made?
Bestie.

2. Last person you hugged?
No idea.

3. Last person you hung out with?
Bestie.

4. Last time you worked?
4 month ago.

5. Last person you talked to?
Mummy:)

6. Last person you IM'd?
No idea.

7. Last person you texted?
J.

8. Last person(s) you went to the movies with?
Bestie.

9. Last person who called you?
Bestie.

10. Last website visited?
-.-"

The person who tagged you.
Acha :)

2. Your relationship with her/him.
BFF.

3. Your 5 impressions of her/him.
Hmm. Funny, nice to be with, irritating,sweet,naughty.

4. The most memorable thing that he/she has done for you
Go thru with me the UPs and DOWNs.

5. The most memorable thing he/she has said to you.
Hmm. it was 5 years ago. so i cant remember. sorry

6. If he/she becomes your lover, things he/she has to improve on.
WHAT?! omg will never be.

7. If he/she becomes your enemy, you will.
i dont think we will.

8. What is the thing you want to tell him/her now.
I miss you !

9. Your overall impression of him/her.
Nice.

10. How do you think the person around you will feel about you?
If only i can read their mind.

11. The character you love about yourself is .
No idea.

12.The character you hate about yourself is.
Laziness i have at times.

13. The most ideal person you want to be.
No idea but i think just be myself thats the only solution.

14. For people who cares and likes you, say something to them.
Thankie.. I love you.

omg i am finally done..

;D

220309

2009-03-22T00:07:00.002+08:00

achoo.. dusty blog i've got..
okay lets get started..
didnt update for like 1 month plus i guess..
been busy with this and that plus lazy to update..
besides nobody reading it..

so today i got a sudden feeling to update.
yeaa weird right..i knw i knw..
plus SOMEBODY asked me to update..
so i decided to update..

hmm so okayy wait i dont know what to update..
okay firstly,life sucks..
alot of things had happen..
maybe should not dwell on it anymore..
what past should just remain as memories..

secondly,school is still the same..
test every week..
homework almost everyday..
extra classes everyday..
giving me headache..
but whatever it is still have to endure till O level is over..
march holiday we still have classes to attend..
8 am start till 4.30 pm how tiring can that be..

thirdly,let me see..
i still haven finish doing my march holiday homework..
and and my studies had deteriorated..
and now i am damn worry about it la..
aiyoo

hmm so currently my parents not at home..
they went to malaysia to attend to some thingy..
they went on thusday and will only be back on sunday night..
andd i am free from all the nagging..
DANG !
yeaa thats all..
okayy now i am speechless..

shall update next time then..
see u soon humans..

just when u got everything at the tip of your tongue,
nothing comes out and u starts to shutter.

01.02.09

2009-02-01T16:06:00.003+08:00

hello human..
didnt update for quite sometimes..
yeaa been busy with this and that..
okayy first thing first..today is jueqi bestie birthday !!
soo HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY !!
may ur best wishes come true !!
went to celebrate with her yesterday night..
went to watch movie bride war..
the movie was awesome..then went starbucks and then went to our usual place and chill..
give her, her present and all..
i bought for her esprit perfume..its a set thingy..
then i made for her like a 'folio' ..
using a4 colour paper then write down everything we been thru and all..
paste our picture even the last time photos..
then i wire binding them..
yeahhh then gave her
that's about it..hope she like it..it just a small simple present..

okays its already february...
pass in a blink of an eyes..alot of things had happen..
school become crazier..
test every week..omg !!
but have to endure for just 9 more months than it will decide my future..
darn!!!

so nothing much to update.
so happy 17th birthday bestie !
& happy belated 18th birthday to vishu!

may good things coming up ur way !
;D

23.01.09

2009-01-23T16:44:00.002+08:00

hello human..
today is friday and its almost the end of january..
time flies super fast..i cant feel anything..
tsk..
chinese new year is around the corner..and we got 4 days holidays..
but unfortunately i cant spend my 4 days holiday doin what i want..
i got piles of homework to be done and after the CNY i got class test..
darn!
the suffering that i have now will never end it will continue on and on..
haiz sad life.. plus plus i still need to find idea for my D&T..
dammit..seriously i got no idea AT ALL.. can somebody help me?!
i need inspiration..hahha

anw school had been getting more irritating then before..
alot of thing had change..
even the principal..
but i think is a good thing..
and they really want us to produce better O level result then the year before..
i feel scared..wait, i am scared..
i scared i cannot make it to poly or something..
or maybe i think too much..
they had made us realised the important-ness of the word 'study'..
like really..it make me open my eyes wide for the years to come..
and and they also focus-in on mathematic this year..
maths very important !!
anw amaths is really killing me i mean the topic on logarithm..
goshhh..i dont like especially when i cant solve it..
MUST PRACTICE MORE !!

ohh and i have come to the decision to retake my mt O level again..
yeah i know if i retake again it gonna be my 3rd time taking my mt O level..
but who cares i dont wanna give up yet although my mt suck..
hahha..i am aiming for A's this time around..
hoping very hard**
lol..

hmm..this week i am down with flu and sore throat..
super irritating..
i cannot talk properly with me having sore throat..
and i have finished alot of tissue paper..
darnn..super bad..
hhhahha

okayy i dont know what to say now..
and my post is super boring...
maybe i wll make it more interesting next time..

;D
enjoy ur holiday*

14.01.08

2009-01-14T17:36:00.002+08:00

hello humans.
yesyes i know i haven been updating since 15628days..
was busy so i've got no time u see..
anw nobody reads my blog..
so who cares right..
hmm so where do i start?!
okayy its already a beginning of a new year..
yea althought i know its a little bit too late* butbut its okayy..
so my this year resolution is too do well in O level..
thats is the most important of all la..
task..
okay actually i dont know what to post..
hmm okay school is doing fine..
i am trying to get use to sleep early,wake up early..
since we have 2mths of holidays..
hahh..okayy i am talking crap**

actually i just came back from school..
quite tiring..got alot of homework to be done..
p/s amaths is killing me and killing my brain cells..
hohoho*
okayy im speechless!!
i'm off then..

26.12.2008

2008-12-26T12:30:00.003+08:00

pitures!

some of the pictures..
yeapps
;D

26.12.2008

2008-12-26T11:54:00.002+08:00

hello human
yeaa its been awhile since i last blog again..
yea been pretty busy with this and that..
but first thing first i pass my N level..OMG
meaning i am goin to sec 5 next year..
so do my frens..
when i see my result it was damn shocking la..
it didnt what i expected to come out..
i was damn,very happy..
i meet bestie straight after i got my result..HAHA!
and i like crazy people..
okay enough of that..
i must really study hard next year..
yeaa but at times i feel that i cannot do it..-.-
watever with it..i will try my very best.

next, working was alright..
resigning soon i think, due to school starting soon.
the only thing i can say is working is hard..
but its fun BUT AT TIMES it suck to the max..
this week actually i got 2days off which was on mon & sat..
but unfortunately i dont know how come they change my schedule..
i must go work on sat..fuck right..
was planning to go out on sat..tsk3

so yesterday was christmas...
MERRY CHRISTMAS PEOPLE !!
ytd celebrate with my colleague at laupasat(its that how u spell)..
reach there at around 11pm after everybody end work..
almost everybody was there..
but me and bestie did not eat alot..
cos like its late and we dont really eat at night..
they order beer and all..
everybody was HIGH..
we exchange christmas give and all..
and u know i got cadbury chocolate:D
yadayada take cab home..
we share cab..went to sembawang first then bestie and finally my hse..
i forever last.
the fare was 35++ buck..
quite cheap la i tot gonna be 40-50 buck..can claim the money obviously
i reach home at 2.30am yesterdayy..lalala*

working in the afternoon later on..
exhausted to the max!
picture will be post later..

17.12.08

2008-12-17T12:54:00.003+08:00

hello humans..
its another new day..time pass super fast till we cannot feel that holidays are coming to the end..
didnt blog for quiet sometimes..was busy plus lazy to update..
as usual la huhh..
so as for this week i got alot of, off days..
was pretty happy with that..
anw i've received my pay last week..
quite satisfying la.

anw i am feeling anxious,nervous,scared,etc,etc..
cos tomorrow is result day..
i really hope i can make it..
praying hard and wish that everything gonna be fine..
hmm i guess tonight i cant sleep in peace..
BUT BUT not to worry bestie say i can call her and talk to her all night..
glad to hear that right..
hahha..
omg i can feel my heart beating so fast and as if it gonna drop anytime..
so better change topic..
GAHH..

so so not working today..
but bestie working today..
maybe meeting her later after her work..
hmm i dont know..
lalala*

anw anw..i've changed phone..
hehehe..
after 2years i endure with my samsung phone finally i changed..
but really my samsung phone got alot alot of memories that cant be forgotten..
hahha

okay serously i got nth else to blog anymore..
that is why i am talking crappy stuff!!!
so i'm off la..
;DD

10.12.2008

2008-12-10T13:42:00.003+08:00

i dont know what happening to me..
when i woke up this morning i can feel something is not right..
this awful thing make me i-am-so-not-myself mood..
life is too short for us not to enjoy our life..
but how can i get this feeling out from myself..
i can feel things are not in the right place..
things happen for a reason..
yes i know that..
but..

trapped inside my own head,
remembering every word you said..
i am screaming and fighting to find a way out..
curled up in my own mind drowning in doubt..
wrapping inside my thoughts overlooking the days..
trying to find my way out of this solitary maze..
indulge in judgements of the outside place..
looking in a broken mirror at my shattered face..
waking up from the nightmare from which i live..
caged like an animal nothing seems to give..

watever with that..working in the afternoon..
i am feeling rather lethargic.

09.12.2008

2008-12-09T15:48:00.003+08:00

hello human..
i am still alive..hahh
hmm as u can see i just change my blogskin just a mins ago..
i just realise that i haven been changing my blogskin for ages..
anw i not working today thats why i am here blogging just to kill time and update my dead blog..gahh..
okayyy i know that, no one is reading my blog but so what, i am bloging for pleasure and fun..
okayy ENOUGH!
its already december..OMG time flies super duper fast..
i just cannot feel it..in a few days,weeks times my result will be out.
ohh shit i am super duper nervous and scared when i think of it..
i scared i cannot make it..tsk3
i know what's done is done and i cannot make it happen again and just let fate decide it..arghh
i hope i can rewind the time again..

ystd was hari raya haji..am i right?
was supposed to go to work but something happen so i called up my manager and skip work.
and yaa i have to thanks bestie for covering up for me and she got extend till 9pm instead of going home at 5pm..
thanks babe..
i love you to the max..<3
blablabla meet my awesome cuzin as usually had the small talk and all..
lazy to elaborate..

anw christmas is coming..my workplace having this christmas party and we all are supposed to buy a gift and exchange with one another..lalala
work is doing fine..but at times it sucks to the max..
yea u know..
me and him is doing fine but at times we have this small tiff..
haiz..
i really hope he understand me more..
i hope we can be like last time when everything is doing fine..
but happy moment comes and goes so fast that u cant feel that it is happening..

nth else to blog human..
will blog soon;D

30.11.08

2008-11-30T14:08:00.003+08:00

hello human..
i have a sudden urge to blog today..hahh
goin to work later on..tsk.
yesterday when to raffles medical centre to have my injection(vaccination) with bestie..
can still feel alittle pain now but not tt hurt..
currently i m feeling alittle lethargic..hahh
bestie doin obs tomorrow.feel sad i am so gonna miss her..
GAHH..

anw i don't know how come i dreamt of him ytd..
i know i shouldn't have feeling for him anymore but i cant deny tt i am still not over him..
haiz..
time fly super fast and tomorrow is the beginning of a new month..
result day is oso coming..
OMG!!!

hmm
will blog again then..
;D

19.11.08

2008-11-19T12:55:00.000+08:00

hello human.
okayy my blog is dying..hahha
not working today i felt so relieve,phew.
been working since last week non stop..this week i only had 1day off..hmpf
exhauted like hell...but nvm atleast there's no need for me to rotted at home..
i cant wait for the pay day..hahh
i got so many thing in mind..GAHH

bestie working today till 10.30..sad case..
we already reserved 1 day off next week to go out..
hehh.
ohhya i had make new fren!!!
many things happen..hectic life..
hohoho..

okayy wat else..
i am lost for word..
if that's the case i will update soon human..
hahhss
p/s MY BLOG IS DYING!!

;D

09.11.08

2008-11-09T21:19:00.002+08:00

its been quite sometimes since i last update this blog..
had been busy this few days..
have been going out almost everyday..so yupp
have been applying for so many job but finally i got it..
but quite far but i guess its okayy..what to do right.
i starting the work tomorrow.so wish me luck..
i am nervous actually as it is my first time going to work..
i want to gain experince yea..
ohhya bestie got that work too..i am very happy at least got accompany right..

hmm..mly O's is over..but i bet i couldnt score that well..
the paper quite difficult but i already did my best..
all thanks to somebody for giving me encouragement and a little advice..
and heyy i did follow your meed advice okayy..

omg tomorrow have to go all the way to suntec.tsk
ohh btw lucky i bumped into u and that somebody that day..
atleast it clear my doubt.although its hurt but it answer almost all my question.

i did not know what happen to u guys..
but infront of me you pretend to be someone else.u treat me like as if i did something wrong to you guys..
and please you dont need to pretend anymore cos i already know the truth.
if you like wanna ask her out just say it infront of me there's no need for you to hide it.
for god seek i oso dont wanna go out with you guys.i got my own fren plz.
if you think you guys did this to me just because you wanna see me being all alone,forget it okayy..i already had my own fren and i can tell you that my fren are better then you.i thought when we are frens for years you will know me better but i was wrong but instead u believe the person that u just know a few days ago.
so now whose the hypocrite?!

i am sorry but i got to tell it all.
no offence to anyone this is just for that "someone".

i'm off..
;D

29.10.08

2008-10-29T23:13:00.000+08:00

hehh.hello..
i feel like updating today:D
hmm..so yesterday was yijuan-galfren birthday..cheer to that..
heyy u turn one year older:DD
okayy hmm i really hope she likes the present & the surprise me & jueqi-bestie gave to her..
although it is just a small surprise but we really hope u like it..

hmm..today is that somebody birthday..
sorry for not wishing u..i know it sound kinda bad but i cannot bring myself to do that after what u have done to me.
i felt that all this while u had deceive me..
i know i shouldnt have hold grudges but i really ...
im really sorry for that..
hmm anw i hope u are happy with who u are with..
i have learn to move on..

i don't understand
why can't u see
just what ur yelling is doing to me
open your eyes take a look
u used to read me like a book
but times have changed as they tend to do
& my life is turning into a zoo
tears fall hard
my head start to pound
& all at once my heart hits the ground
i don't know what i did to make you
think that i can't do anything right
for lately it seems our hearts &
our dreams are as different as black
& white

tsk.the wound are too deep but u are adding salt to it instead of curing it.

HAPPY belated 15th BIRTHDAY YI JUAN!!
may ur best wishes come true..
:D,loves

i'm off
:D

22.09.2008

2008-10-22T20:06:00.003+08:00

Haven been updating that much recently..
was too lazy to update..
my life is still the same..fulls of ups and downs..
but what is life without it..right..
so when it happens we have to go through it..and life's have to move on..
because we need to see, what's the ending really are..
sighh.anw i really dont know if i should forget him or continue to wait..
he had hurt me twice but now he still giving me hope although he now seeing other girl.
what should i do??why must u give me that hope again..
i already promise to myself not to fall into your trap anymore but now i really dont know what to do..
it seem that i had become soft-hearted again..
i hate it when this happen..will u really stop it?!
i m tired of your game seriously!.

hmm anw, when for interview just now with u know who,bestie.
was super nervous,but in the end we go through it smoothly..:D
dont ask me what work is that..*its for me to know, u to find out*
we will know the result by this friday ,6pm..
i really hope we will get it..god plz help us:D

have been rotting at home this few days with my books & dvd..
i havin my own movie marathon since everybody is busy..hehh
ohhyaa..did not went out with pri school friends last sunday..
i m really sorry guys the date is clash with other things..
hope u guys are not angry..we will go outing another day aite..

hmm MT O level??i haven been studying..i dont feel like studying it..
that really suck..
okayy will update again soon..

;D

14.10.2008

2008-10-14T13:11:00.002+08:00

hello people..
i know i haven been updating for like very very very long..
sorry about tt..busy studying for N level & too lazy to blog plus no time..
hahhs..
okayy anw i'm glad to say tt N level is over..
but my mt O's is not over..
hmm..eventhough N's is over but i m still worried about the result..
i scared i cannot make it for sec5 next year..
tsk..
but no use regret it now coz its over anw..
so praying hard now..

hmm..
hari raya was a blast want..
i enjoying it especially with my cuzin ard !!
hahhss

okayy nth else to blog..
will blog soon aite..

&& good luck for those who taking O level..
mug hard..
:DD

07.09.2008

2008-09-07T16:18:00.002+08:00

i dont know what happening to me now..
n i know i m not strong enuf to go thru all this by myself..
why must it happen to me n not someone else..?
i keep asking myself tt question everyday..
but i jus cant get the right ans..
mayb..

& i admit tt i need someone to lean on when i m collapsing..
i m not strong enuff...
.....................

this is real..
the one who could make me happy is also the one who could make me sad..
& for some reason i realised that i need you more n more each day..
sorry i really need to pour out what i gota say..
furthermore this is my blog..