hi humans,



ive got no idea why but i just dont feel good this few days.. i am feeling down.. and i dont know why..
seriously. i am trying hard to give a happy face and a cheerful smile to let everybody around me think that i am a happy girl.
i missed my old self. i missed the time when i am always cheerful and eventho there is something worrying me but i can overcome it openly..
i am tired of giving a fake smile while inside of me are dying..
tsk.. i missed the usual clique.
i missed my cousin.
i missed my classmate.
i missed my outside friends.
i miss everybody...
and i miss u..
BADLY..

O's is ending soon.. and i gonna get my freedom back soon.
i am supposed to be happy, aint i?
but i just cant feel it.. OMG !
i need my happy pills.. i need my laughing pills.
ohh gosh i dreamt of grandaddy yesterday and i dreamt of him yesterday..
what does it mean?!
the only thing i know is that i missed my grandaddy..
i missed the time we had together.. if only u can come back...
but the other dream.. hmm ive got no idea..

u always make me happy.. u never failed to cheer me up..
whenever i got ur text or phone called i will be wearing off that happy face..
but at times u disappointed me with ur u-know-what.. i know i dont have to mention..
cos i dont think i should tell everybody about that..
at times i dont understand u.. u always make me wondering and make me feel bad at times..
i think we are drifting apart..




i have enough i want to be happy girl.
i'm off.. i need to study..

<3