Wednesday, December 30, 2009
hi humans
2009 is coming to the end.. one more day left and there we are saying goodbye to 2009.
so before it end let me do a last post.
yea i know there is still tomorrow but i don't think i gonna be that free to update it tomorrow.
so yea better do it today, now.
2009 hasn't been really a good year for me but nevertheless i have enjoyed myself with great friends and classmates who are willing to be there through thick and skin.
but still i would not forget the problem that i have to face through throughout the months. its really hurt me a lot and i have to face it all alone and trying hard to focus on O level.
but i was lucky enough to have some friends who really help me and lessen my burden.
really appreciated it a lot. and i will not forget the time when i really feel stress out, i will spill nonsense and throw my tantrum to my friends. especially "kuku-ness". but thank god she really understand me and don't mind me saying it all..
even how many times i told her the story and keep whining to her she will always tolerate my nonsense..
ohh mann i just love her alot.. i just don't know what will happen to me when she is not there at that point of time ..
even during the O level period she keep encouraging me and keep asking me not to have that negative thoughts.
okayokay.. no words can describe her .. she is just the best (:
so 2009 is coming to the end but yet i didnt managed to completed my 2009 resolution.
i feel like a loser tho. -.-
so i wonder what i gonna do tomorrow since it is the last day of 2009 ..
and i still have not make up my mind if i should go work or go out and have some fun..
but the thing is they are paying 10buck for an hour.. but actually its not really about the bucks la.
i am half-hearted ! shucks !
so i hope 2010 will be a better year for me and i really hope i will not repeat the same mistake again.
and i really want to forget him.. really..
like what i say in my previous post what's the point of waiting if he really dont bother about u.
maybe it's time to move on (:
so its better for me to leave. i hoped u will learn how to appreciate things that are infront of u.
and for her, stop making used of people and please have a life.
and O level result will be out REAL soon.. Ooo .
i'm off then.
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Sunday, December 27, 2009
hi humans,
haven been blogging.. i dont know why i somehow have lost interest in blogging.. dont asked why..
tsk. i really dont know, nowadays i kept asking myself question. question without an answer.
i wished i could find all the answer to my question..
alot of things had happened and i dont wished to recall them all..
suddenly i have the urge to blog..
Christmas was okay.. no comment on that..
diana's christmas party just now was kinda awesome.. since i haven meet that woman for ages..
had a good laugh with them although inside of me is dying..
they brighten up my day today.. i need my laughing pill please..
i love christmas party because i love presents.. hehe
okay seriously i dont know what to blog.. shucks this sucks..okay let me whine please..
i hate the feeling inside of me now.. i mean now right now..
i dont know it is me or people around me.. i just feel pressurize..
i dont know whats wrong with me. i just felt that i am so weak now..
arghh i want to get out from this feeling but i just dont know how..
i wish u were here with me but u never understand how i feel about u no matter how much i show u..
so why must i bother because i know what i gonna wish for would not come true..
it is just a waste of time.. i think i have hurt alot of people but i just wish u understand me..
i want to say goodbye to 2009 and start afresh.
please give me that chance .. -.-
i'm off !
(:
psst : alvin and the chipmunks is so cute ! i wish i can bring them home. at
Friday, December 11, 2009
TSK.. i really miss my classmate !
sorry for not updating my blog for quite sometimes..
i've been busy and very lazy to update this dusty blog of mine. all this while i've kinda do a soul searching for myself..
and i realize that life is not a bed of roses.. life is more then that..
at times i really need to lie to myself that i'm happy ..
life is not like fairy tales that always have a happy ending. they are all fake..
in life good things always comes to the end very fast.. there's nothing much u could do about that.
i always tried hard, very hard to show others that i am happy so that they won't get worried and kept asking me what happen.
but at times i just failed to do that because i have a friends that really know me well..
even how hard i tried to hide my real feeling they will somehow know it..
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maybe i should write more.. and i wrote but i deleted a huge load.
but does it matter?
i'm sorry i just feel like a total ... at
Wednesday, December 02, 2009
hi humans,
its already december. time flies.
but suddenly i remembered about the O level exam that i took a month ago or so..
yes i may have taken it a months ago but the feeling of insecurity and anxiety had not diminished with time.
i may have felt relief that it was all over and even told myself that i have done my best but the conviction soon disappeared.
ohhmyy! it's over anyway.. i am over it not..
i wonder how's my result gonna be like..
okay this week have been great unlike last week..
so on monday went to work.. work at Laguna Resort because they have an event there so they need worker..
at first i dont wanna go but after having a great pressure from the two girls i went..
i know WTH right. beside i need to hand-in the form so that they can transfer my salary in.
nabilla managed to called quite a number of people to helped out in that event.
they are sidah, shahirah, me, syafiq, aqil, syafiq's friend and her cousin .
finally, after 75372 days i managed to meet up with them..
work with them was awesome.. the endless story that we shared and the laughed we had its just so fun...
ohh i already missed them :(
disturbing one another is just so funny and hilarious..
and i swear syafiq is so blur.. and he got scolded by nabilla. and he came to me with that empathy face..
so started work at 5 end at 11p.m .
and guess what i managed to get the last bus home..
wanted to take cab home once i reached woodlands interchange but sidah insisted of me checking it first..
so she accompany me and her eyes was so sharp that she screamed and say that was the last bus..
we run like nobody business and i managed to hop in..
wave goodbye to her..
i love her to the max!:)
so tuesday and today i rotted at home..
lazed around at home watching tv and movies..
and i need new books !!!
baby sit today was fun.. she is just so fun to be with.. she entertained me today.
so tomorrow plan was to go out with sylvia and cherilyn..
haven meet them for ages.. kinda excited for tomorrow..
then friday meeting diana and maybe the girls if they are coming along..
and u guys better be good and come along.. puhlesss!!!
okay i really dont know what else to blog..
but i need a job can..
HAAPY BIRTHDAY GATSPER !
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