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Monday, March 22, 2010

hi humans,
I feel like i am dying. Yes dying ! I am supposed to be studying right now but oh well, blogging's is much more important at the moment. I don't know how my life gonna get any worst. Oh please don't screw up my 2010. I just finished my essay like 1 hour ago and now i don't have the mood to study. What's wrong with me?! It is me or the things around me that make me feels this way? I want to be happy can. And for goodness sake i need to be extra extra super duper hardworking this year because it is an important year for me but why am i feeling this way. where's all the motivation and encouragement that i used to have? can somebody knock some sense in me. Yes now right now ! I can't afford to lose anything this year. It is just too valuable too me. And i can't afford to waste any more time. NO ! Oh my goodness gracious.
And what's up with u? Trying to mess up with my life again? Oh please i not gonna entertain your drama-mama and your sweet talks anymore. Enough is enough. And u got the wrong girls because i am not like THOSE girls you met on the net. Yes those girls. You know i meant and please don't act like you are one innocent kids.
Whatever i don't feel good. I gonna spam my tumblr.

(:

at 9:50 PM

Sunday, March 14, 2010

hi humans,
i am happy today. look at the weather! i love rainy days! anyway, i am so productive today. since parents not in town, i woke up and i did the house chores for freaking 2h 30mins . i know rightttttt.. haha. i even mop the floor. and my room is so freaking neat and tidy so do the other rooms, the kitchen and the hall. and i swear i was sweating like hell. and i felt that i just finished my 2.4 run. after doing all those stuff had my shower and i did my revision. i feel like a good girl today. currently, i am alone at home. brother have left for work and here i am lazing on the sofa with the television on and blogging on my lappy(: i guess i gonna continue with my revision soon. because i already planned what i need to study and do for today!
and i am super duper hungry. i haven eaten anything since just now. and there's nothing at home. i am so freaking lazy to go out and buy my late late lunch. ARGH! should i just order for mac delivery?? should i?

and every girl knows a guy like this: he flirt with u, texts u every night before bed and puts out the vibe that he's seriously interested in u. thats is until he chats up another girl at the party or somewhere else , sends a three-word reply to your facebook messages or msn, and acts like he doesn't want a girlfriend. but just as u're ready to give up on him, he makes some irresistibly sweet gesture thats pulls u right back in. and hey i am so over u and i am not gonna entertain your yo-yo attitudes for good.(:

enjoy the rest of the day peeps !
(:

at 3:11 PM

Friday, March 12, 2010

hi humans,
okay don't asked me why i am i updating my blog now and not last week or yesterday or whatsoever. i am just too busy and plain lazy to update it. but now i am in dilemma. should i go to the dinner at Jurong Chevron tomorrow? OHH GOSHH! okay it was like this, Ariff called me in the afternoon asking me if i am free tomorrow night and so i asked him why. and so he invited me to go to dinner with Eyra and Ms Geetha tomorrow night. i was super blur at that point of time. i swear. so i was like okay okay i will go. then a few hours later i was thinking about the conversation we had earlier and it make me wonder why Ms Geetha didn't text me and all about the dinner until he called me and told me. then just now i decided to text Ms Geetha asking about tomorrow stuff in detail and she told me that tomorrow is Ariff's brother wedding reception. i was damn shocked. and he didn't tell me properly. i just feel like smacking his face. 0.0 but now, i am half-hearted about me going to the dinner because i am not used to this kind of stuff. i will confirm feel very very weird because of the surrounding, the weird people around me ! on top of that i just don't know what to wear ! OMG ! HOW! i am panicky! great just great.
anyway, parents will not be in town tomorrow till monday. and i am left with my irritating brother at home. -.- ohh and The Girls are opening a chalet most probably next two weeks. i am kinda excited though.(: okay i can't stop thinking about tomorrow dinner. if i tell him i can't go it will make me feels bad beside he called me up and invited me eventhough he didn't tell me in detail. screwed him for that. maybe if he were to tell me in detail i will confirm say that i am not free and maybe that's the reason why he didn't tell me. Ooo he know me well enough uh-huh. but if i were to go i will feel very weird and i will not behave like myself. and the worst part is I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO WEAR !
arghh enough. just wish me luck(:

enjoy ur weekends peeps !

at 11:44 PM

Monday, March 01, 2010

hi humans,
guess what? his back! and i hate it. i hate it. i hate it. wrong timing la boy. let me whine please with cherry on top(:
i can't deny the fact that i am not over him. even how much i tried to move on, the feeling still stay and i kept remembering the time we used to spend together.
i can't deny the fact that i hate him. everytime i tried so hard to forget about him, he will appear before me and give me hope again and again. but i was stupid enough to fall for his false hope over and over again. he left me without giving me any certainty.
i can't deny the fact that i was overjoyed everytime i received his phone called or text messages. but at the same time i was overwhelmed with angered and frustration because i always broke the promise that i made to myself not to entertain him.
i can't deny the fact that i missed him sososo much and i wished i could meet him and gave him a tight tight hugged and never let him go. but i am also waiting for the time when i've got the guts to go to him and give him a tight tight slapped and say, 'shut up and go !'
i wished i could erased all the memories that we share that had stuck on my mind. i wished i have never know him in my life. i am tired of this. i am tired of lying to myself that i hate him but actually i am still stuck in time.

okay enough. ohh i feel so good!
and i am excited because i gonna catch 'dear john' tomorrow!
(:

at 9:06 PM