hi humans,
guess what? his back! and i hate it. i hate it. i hate it. wrong timing la boy. let me whine please with cherry on top(:
i can't deny the fact that i am not over him. even how much i tried to move on, the feeling still stay and i kept remembering the time we used to spend together.
i can't deny the fact that i hate him. everytime i tried so hard to forget about him, he will appear before me and give me hope again and again. but i was stupid enough to fall for his false hope over and over again. he left me without giving me any certainty.
i can't deny the fact that i was overjoyed everytime i received his phone called or text messages. but at the same time i was overwhelmed with angered and frustration because i always broke the promise that i made to myself not to entertain him.
i can't deny the fact that i missed him sososo much and i wished i could meet him and gave him a tight tight hugged and never let him go. but i am also waiting for the time when i've got the guts to go to him and give him a tight tight slapped and say, 'shut up and go !'
i wished i could erased all the memories that we share that had stuck on my mind. i wished i have never know him in my life. i am tired of this. i am tired of lying to myself that i hate him but actually i am still stuck in time.
okay enough. ohh i feel so good!
and i am excited because i gonna catch 'dear john' tomorrow!
(: