hi humans,
i know i haven been updating and the previous post was like a crap. i haven behaving like myself lately. i seriously don't know izit me or just things that had happened around me that make me feel this way. i've been feeling cranky and i have this little feeling in me which i just don't know how to get rid off or deal with it. i've been keeping myself busy with work so that i would not really think about it. so the last few weeks i was busy with work work and more work. i worked everyday from 10am to 9pm daily without taking a break. u may think i am crazy but i just need to occupy myself and make myself busy.
working suck big time but for the sake of it i am enduring it. i miss ALL my friends, the clique, the girlfriends, the hangout partners, shopping partner, whining partner, movie date partner and so muchhhhh moree. i know i have been neglecting u guys but i am sorry, just give me sometimes and we will meet up like we used to be. but at the moment the least things i could do it text u guys. but just remember that i will always be here for u to have a chat or something aite.
the last few days parents fetch me from work so i am lucky tho because there's no need for me to train-ed home and all.(:
i am lost for words now. damn!
okayy please let me let out what i've been bottled up all along.
lovelovelove! everything was a lie all along. i messed up and it wasn't right. i have nightmare about it every night. to some people love is great but to others it is something to hate. this isn't what i wanted, this isn't what it seemed. everything i've been through seems like a big dream. this isn't what i wanted between me and u. but i know i'll never have a another chance ever again. i wish i could tell u how i feel. but doing something like that couldn't be real. but what puzzles me the most was the conscious effort to be connected with the object of affection even if it kills me slowly within.
so if 'leaving' is your decision i will have to accept it. but for once u are a coward because u're living just like that, making yourself disappear.
i'm off.