hi humans,
First thing first, Happy Lunar New Year to my chinese friends and Happy Valentine's Day to everybody who is celebrating it.
so today is just another random day for me. rotted at home like nobody business.
i seriously don't know what to blog but i do enjoyed myself yesterday with the mates.
i am lazy to elaborate. but i know i have so much fun because that the important thing.
everybody was kinda shocked to see me especially the girls.
they were a little upset i guess because i didn't tell them something that they should actually know.
i am sorry. really really sorry.
i know i should tell u guys earlier or when we called or text each other but i just don't want to make things complicated.
things are just to difficult. it is really difficult for me to voice it up to u all eventhough i know that after telling it all to u guys will make me feels better but something in me is stopping me to do that.
besides, i just don't want to make u guys worry looking at my sad condition. i just want to make everybody happy and thats the reason why i always wear a happy face. because i know even if inside of me is dying i know that i have made u all happy somehow. i am sorry.
and thats the reason why i have changed. but i am happy now somehow. the truth hurt but we have to move on.
thats what i am doing now. but i can't deny that i am blessed with good friends around me(:
this year valentine's day is nothing. i don't want to celebrate it either.
we have been through u left without giving me any certainty.
i wished u know how i feel but unfortunately u doesn't.
but i was shocked to receive ur phone calls.
but the feeling have faded.